A few nights ago, as I was praying for myself and praying for God's confirmation to come through. I told God that I donno how should I choose: the easier way, or the way that seems too impossible for it to happen unless He Himself intervenes in it.
Then, I couldn't sleep, so I got up and turned on the Shine TV which was "Devotion Time" with Pastor Ashley and Jane ..........(forgot the surname). Anyway, it was early morning. And their sharing really talk to me, and reminded me that God did once spoke to me in my practicum.
Last year, I was studying towards a degree of Graduate Diploma in Teaching (Early Childhood Education), so I had 3 practicums in a year. While I was at the final practicum, I was in a big class of 30s over 2s children (age from 2-5). There was one that will just throw a tantrum by crying, and lying on the floor kicking when he doesn't get what he wants. One day, the tantrum occurred when he needed to wait for his turn to play with the toys, and he just bursted into tears and cried his lungs out, and then throw himself on the floor and lied there crying. Then the Holy Spirit reminded me: you are just like him over that matter.
I'm like, all shocked, coz it's just like seeing an image mirror before God. When He told me to wait patiently and trust Him, I couldn't do it, and would just start to play tantrums before God. Although He loves us very much, He wouldn't buy in to our tantrums because He knows that we need to learn to wait, as we grow older spiritually. If, we give in to the child who played tantrums everytime, then we are not helping him, but we are spoiling that child to the extent that he won't know how to wait; he will only think of himself and become a selfish person. The worst case that I can think of when he grows up is probably he would sought the worst ways to satisfy his own needs if he is not given the chance to learn to wait.
Waiting is difficult. I admit I'm not a patient person. I couldn't sit still and just wait for an answer to drop down from above. But He's reminding me that there's a greater things need to be done in the Kingdom of God than my own personal problem. So yeah, I know He won't buy in...but He has the best timing. It may be late for me, but it will be in time from His perspective.
Please pray for my heart to be still and be silent in front of Him. =)
Then, I couldn't sleep, so I got up and turned on the Shine TV which was "Devotion Time" with Pastor Ashley and Jane ..........(forgot the surname). Anyway, it was early morning. And their sharing really talk to me, and reminded me that God did once spoke to me in my practicum.
Last year, I was studying towards a degree of Graduate Diploma in Teaching (Early Childhood Education), so I had 3 practicums in a year. While I was at the final practicum, I was in a big class of 30s over 2s children (age from 2-5). There was one that will just throw a tantrum by crying, and lying on the floor kicking when he doesn't get what he wants. One day, the tantrum occurred when he needed to wait for his turn to play with the toys, and he just bursted into tears and cried his lungs out, and then throw himself on the floor and lied there crying. Then the Holy Spirit reminded me: you are just like him over that matter.
I'm like, all shocked, coz it's just like seeing an image mirror before God. When He told me to wait patiently and trust Him, I couldn't do it, and would just start to play tantrums before God. Although He loves us very much, He wouldn't buy in to our tantrums because He knows that we need to learn to wait, as we grow older spiritually. If, we give in to the child who played tantrums everytime, then we are not helping him, but we are spoiling that child to the extent that he won't know how to wait; he will only think of himself and become a selfish person. The worst case that I can think of when he grows up is probably he would sought the worst ways to satisfy his own needs if he is not given the chance to learn to wait.
Waiting is difficult. I admit I'm not a patient person. I couldn't sit still and just wait for an answer to drop down from above. But He's reminding me that there's a greater things need to be done in the Kingdom of God than my own personal problem. So yeah, I know He won't buy in...but He has the best timing. It may be late for me, but it will be in time from His perspective.
Please pray for my heart to be still and be silent in front of Him. =)
