My World

Valentine's Day

2011-03-06T21:55:00.005+13:00

yes, we are crazy!

we went out again on the 14th Feb. Because the night before, he cooked for me, so I treat him tonite. I think in a relationship it's a fair share where both people should contribute to make the relationship grow. So we went to a Japanese restaurant, and then after that we went to Raglan beach, but that day, the sun sets too early, so we didn't get to see anything but clouds clouds clouds.......

but.............I enjoyed his company, and

my lovely bunch of red roses, they came days later, but I don't mind at all haha!!!

Thank you sweetheart and my dear dear Jesus!

My pre-Valentine day

2011-03-06T21:44:00.005+13:00

yup yup this year I Finally got to celebrate my first ever Valentine's Day with my Mr. Marvellous.

on the 13th February, Mr M. cooked me nice dinner - french style steak, and steamed some kumaras, n capsicums! He thinks he didn't cook it well, but for me the dinner was really awesome! But I only remembered to take photo after I nearly finish them = =

我和他（2）

2011-01-31T00:45:00.005+13:00

那晚回到家之后，还是继续发text, 问他是不是认真的。然后他才跟我说，他的脸突然变得很严肃是因为他听到一个声音叫他认真一点。然后我就吓他说，如果你是认真的，那你就去问牧师可不可以在一起。我以为说这样就可以让他倒退，结果没有~~~~他回复说他马上去找牧师，然后他隔天还是隔几天就刚好有事情要找牧师，然后就跟牧师说了。听说牧师笑得超级开心哈哈。然后我就有一次经过牧师办公室的时候，被牧师看到了，就把我叫住，说“Rachael, 我们的弟兄很不错。好好考虑啊!" 只能说，我的弟兄实在是非常大胆！就这样我考虑也祷告了很久，觉得心里满平安的，而且真的觉得跟他在一起都好开心，也很舒服，就在去年的Easter Holiday去Waihi海边的时候答应了跟他交往~~~

虽然我现在还是不知道我的异像里的另一个人是谁，不过我自己觉得那是上帝；我们的交往会让彼此更多的认识神，而且有他介入我们的感情中一定会有很多的祝福和恩典！希望我们的交往让更多的人蒙祝福

我和他（1）

2011-01-30T23:33:00.008+13:00

发现，我都没写过跟他认识的经过，所以决定上来写一写呵呵！

之前在教会都不知道有他怎么一个人，因为他算是刚来2年，而我一直在youth group里面服侍，所以很少有机会认识其他人除非他们在其他团队有服侍。一直到Toby在09年的婚礼上，他请我帮忙准备婚礼献诗，我发现到一首很好听的歌想叫Eva独唱，Toby就叫我找许学辰说他可以帮我声音消掉。就这样，我就找了他帮忙。在帮忙的过程中，我就觉得他人超级nice, 超级有耐心的帮忙，而且当时的我对他来说算是一个陌生人。我就自己心里想：he has a real big heart!之后，我就听说他要回中国结婚了。

不久之后，我就听说他回来，之后从朋友口中听说他没结成。再不久，他就来参加youth group得服侍。他进来的服侍时间也真的是有够 = =" 因为他来了之后不久，toby跟zoe就回去中国；然后滕叔叔跟琴阿姨又去韩国的访韩特会，我就收到命令说我需要帮忙带他；这个完全打破我的“不带男生"得惯例！友谊也是从这个时候建立的。他们去韩国的那天，我们在主日聚会后，也跑去Raglan的Bridal Fall, 爬楼梯的时候我就因为突然一冷一热的脚开始软，然后就整个脸部发白；他跟张铭两个只能轮流背我上去。这次的事件之后，他就建议说我们应该多出去走走；走着走着再加上经常的发简讯，我觉得我好喜欢他，而且他让人跟他在一起的时候很舒服。

上帝让我想起了在台湾他给我的异像：我跟一个有点黑的，又很大只的男生一起走路；还一起爬山，然后之后我是坐在他的肩膀上来到一个人的面前，然后我就很欢喜的从他肩膀上下来，我们三个一起牵着手跳舞。

可是，当时后我觉得还是朋友就好了，我觉得一个人因该不会那么快从一个感情中跳脱出来，所以一直处于denial阶段。他就一直处于试探阶段，然后我就一直跟他说“别玩了”。到2010年二月的时候他邀我去看电影，然后在centre place的楼下，他还企图牵我的手，我就整个吓到了，我又很生气的跟他说了一次“别玩了”。他也有点生气了，说“如果我是认真的呢?" 我没理他就转移话题，然后就一起去找朋友了。他还是很nice的一起带我们去其他地方 -----〉所以说他的耐心真的超级无限大~~~~~~~~~~~~哈哈！

好多要学的

2010-12-05T20:23:00.003+13:00

在感情中，原来真的好多东西要学~~~
在两个不同的文化里，更难！

耶稣帮助我们~~~~~~~~~~~

愛？不愛？-男生女生的差異

2010-05-22T16:01:00.001+12:00

在一個部落格看到的。覺得很特別就po上來了^^

女生不懂，当女生在为男生不打电话生气时，男生可能在干着又苦又累的工作。

女生不懂，当男生为女生披上他自己的衣服是，他也是如坠冰窖。

女生不懂，当女生一句话让男生沉默的时候，男生不是生气，而是深深的受伤。

女生不懂，当看到男生一只快乐时，不是男生没有痛苦，而是全部埋在心底。

女生不懂，当女生为男生付出的时候，男生不是看不见，而是不善于表达。

女生不懂，当男生挑剔女生不好的时候，在别人面前却夸的如天仙一般。

女生不懂，当男生转身的时候，女生看不到男生眼底的悲伤和心理的泪和血。

女生不懂，当男生失意的时候，永远是孤独的喝着酒。

女生不懂，当男生在坚强的外表下，有时候是一颗异常脆弱的心。

女生不懂，当男生悲伤的时候，永远不会骂女生，是因为男生还深深的爱着她。

女生不懂，当女生痛苦的时候，男生的心痛永远不会比女生少。

女生不懂，当男生离开的时候，并不代表他不爱她，而是不想浪费她的青春和感情。

女生不懂，当男生选择成为过客的时候，男生的心中永远刻着女生的名字。

女生不懂，当男生装傻的时候，不是忘记，而是在想如何给女生一个惊喜。

女生不懂，当男生生气的时候，不是因为不能承受女生的无理取闹，而是因为被女生的话深深地伤害。

如果一个男生真的爱一个女生，他的许多都是女生不懂得，男生对女生的尊重和爱也不会比女生付出的少，因为男生承受的东西本就很多，男生的心不会比女生坚强，因为女生可以发泄，而男生却只能压在心底。很多时候不要太责怪一个男生。因为他爱的同样甚至更深。只不过被深深的藏起。

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男生永远不懂，为什么女生会那么的依赖你，那是因为她把你当做她的唯一，为什么女生在你不给她打电话的时候会很生气，因为她想要听到你的声音，感觉你的疼爱。

男生永远不懂，女生为什么会爱生气，因为她只是想要你来哄她，回味你们之间的温存。

男生永远不懂，女生怎么那么爱吃醋，那是因为她爱你，而容不下一点你给其他女生的任何一点温柔。

男生永远不懂，为什么女生爱唠叨让你少抽烟，少喝酒，女生也知道那不可能，但是她担心你的身体。

男生永远不懂，女生怎么那么多的眼泪，那是因为她将所有的委屈都化做泪水，而把所有的温柔都留给你。

男生永远不懂，女生愿意为你东奔西跑、为你做很多事，只是因为爱你，而并不是为了显示自己比你强。

男生永远不懂，女生会在很晚的时候打电话给你，不是不信任你，只是突然很想你，想听听你的声音。

男生永远不懂，女生会想要知道你的一切，想为你分担事情，那是因为她只想要自己是你最亲密的人。

男生永远不懂，当分手来到时，女生那坚强的语言后面是多么伤的伤痛！

男生永远不懂，分手后女生不是不痛，而是痛到连看到你就会无法自拔！

男生永远不懂，女生的爱是那么深。一旦爱上就不能自已。隐瞒的那么深，不要带给你困扰！而自己哭泣！

男生永远不懂，女生的爱！女生的爱脆弱又坚强，不要**感情。女孩狠起心来是不要命的。

男生永远不懂,当你说不爱她了。她不会缠着你。只要你快乐，她愿意放开你。

男生永远不懂，女生在分手后那笑的背后有了多少的悲痛！

如果爱，请深深的爱她，如果不爱，请不要享受她的独爱。不要挥霍爱情，爱情挥霍完了，就会挥霍了她的生命。

Tired but happy

2010-02-13T21:18:00.002+13:00

I've started working for a week now, and I love that place, love the team, and love the children!!
The staff are all very nice to me, and teach me a lot of new things. They also make sure that I'm alright at work, and yeah, everything is good!

Job hunting (2)

2010-02-07T22:01:00.002+13:00

So, I went to the interview for the one that I felt uncomfortable, and God closed the door! haha! They said they would want an experienced teacher because their centre is fairly new and they only have one with experienced at the moment. So, yey! God close the door! ^^
It's good that they gave me the result of the discussion the very next day, while I am actively searching for job on the internet. I came across one that is a very big company that has over 100 centres in New Zealand. I have been considering to go into big company for a very long time.So decided to give it a go.Applied in writing that day, and got the phone call the next day, and interview the next day after.

During the interview, it was only the HR manager that interviewed me, and she referred me to a centre where she think would be the best for me, but she said that it's not up to her to make the decision; it is the centre's manager and me. So yeah, I went to see the centre, and have a chat with the centre manager, and while chatting, we just clicked because of something in common interest that we share. And yeah, straightaway I rang the HR manager and told her that I like the place and would like to join the team.

So, the HR manager has to ring the referees of mine, she has to at least get 2 out of the 3 references. But after ringing the 1st one, she told me she couldn't get hold of the second one whom is having holiday at the beach. And she told me to wait until next week to give me the final outcome. And then within the next few minutes, the HR manager rang back and said, the Business manager told her to 'just give me the job'. In my heart I'm like "Whoa!!! Praise God!!" This is indeed a miracle to me! Got a job in just that one day!!!! haha!

Job hunting (1)

2010-02-07T21:08:00.004+13:00

I have been looking for jobs and interviewing since January, but they all asked me to wait, for the reasons that it's New Year period, and then I have to wait for them to get to the end of interviews.

I am not the person of patient, I keep looking out for posts that are advertised in Education Gazette (a magazine that is published by the Ministry of Education), and the outcomes are:

-there's one that I really like in Paraparaumu (Kapiti Coast), which is a town near Wellington, but Mum was like why do you have to go so far to work when you can easily find jobs in Hamilton.

-another one that I hoped to get in, but they rejected me to go for the interview = ="!!!

-some centres I did went to interview, and got rejected because the amount of people that applied is just overwhelming

-some I couldn't wait because they are new centres, and only open in March/April.

-Then, another one is a centre that I don't really feel comfortable. I went to look at the centre, but then I felt it's all good. And I told the manager that I would want to have a formal interview. It's only when I had the chance to work as a reliever that I felt a bit uncomfortable, but when I asked my friends if there's any case of people pulling out of interview, they all marah (scold) me. Then, I can only pray to God and said, I really don't like it, can you please don't let them employ me... I think no one would make that kind of prayer to ask God to close the door.

But during this period of waiting time, Revelation 3:7-8

To the angel of the church in Philadelphia write: These are the words of him who is holy and true, who holds the key of David. What he opens no one can shut, and what he shuts no one can open. I know your deeds. See, I have placed before you an open door that no one can shut. I know that you have little strength, yet you have kept my word and have not denied my name.

These two verses gave me an endorsement that everything we do, everything we have and going to have; or everywhere we go is endorse by God. It's just amazing that you know when you are a child of God, you are protected, and guarded by Him. I don't know how other people feel when they are rejected for a job especially during this time of the economy downturn, but I felt that joy keep flowing inside of me when I'm rejected. When I texted other people and told them I'm rejected, they were all asking if I'm alright, and I said yes, perfectly alright because God holds the pass to whatever company that I'm going into.

Learn to Wait

2010-01-28T21:16:00.005+13:00

A few nights ago, as I was praying for myself and praying for God's confirmation to come through. I told God that I donno how should I choose: the easier way, or the way that seems too impossible for it to happen unless He Himself intervenes in it.
Then, I couldn't sleep, so I got up and turned on the Shine TV which was "Devotion Time" with Pastor Ashley and Jane ..........(forgot the surname). Anyway, it was early morning. And their sharing really talk to me, and reminded me that God did once spoke to me in my practicum.

Last year, I was studying towards a degree of Graduate Diploma in Teaching (Early Childhood Education), so I had 3 practicums in a year. While I was at the final practicum, I was in a big class of 30s over 2s children (age from 2-5). There was one that will just throw a tantrum by crying, and lying on the floor kicking when he doesn't get what he wants. One day, the tantrum occurred when he needed to wait for his turn to play with the toys, and he just bursted into tears and cried his lungs out, and then throw himself on the floor and lied there crying. Then the Holy Spirit reminded me: you are just like him over that matter.

I'm like, all shocked, coz it's just like seeing an image mirror before God. When He told me to wait patiently and trust Him, I couldn't do it, and would just start to play tantrums before God. Although He loves us very much, He wouldn't buy in to our tantrums because He knows that we need to learn to wait, as we grow older spiritually. If, we give in to the child who played tantrums everytime, then we are not helping him, but we are spoiling that child to the extent that he won't know how to wait; he will only think of himself and become a selfish person. The worst case that I can think of when he grows up is probably he would sought the worst ways to satisfy his own needs if he is not given the chance to learn to wait.

Waiting is difficult. I admit I'm not a patient person. I couldn't sit still and just wait for an answer to drop down from above. But He's reminding me that there's a greater things need to be done in the Kingdom of God than my own personal problem. So yeah, I know He won't buy in...but He has the best timing. It may be late for me, but it will be in time from His perspective.

Please pray for my heart to be still and be silent in front of Him. =)

Interviews

2010-01-15T17:36:00.002+13:00

This week has been all about interviews and looking at Early Childhood centres that I'm interested in.
So, hopefully God will open the door that He wants me to go to, and use me as a vessel in the area.
Although I have two centres in mind, but I'll leave all the decisions to Him because He's the one that will open the door that no one can shut!

Happy 2010!!

2010-01-02T17:00:00.002+13:00

Happy New Year everyone!

I hope this year would be a great one to everyone and that all bondages of the past

will be breakfree by God.

Yesterday, I spent a quiet morning in my bedroom writing my New Year resolution, hopefully it will all be fulfilled this year!!

*hugs and kisses*

Coromandel Trip

2009-12-28T17:05:00.007+13:00

About 12 of us went to Coromandel Area on Christmas Day

Then, 5 stayed at a ferry point to fish, while the rest of us went to Cathedral Cove!

It was a pleasant 35 minutes walk down to the beach, but when we came up to the top, it was HOT HOT HOT, although it's only 9 something in the morning! The sun is just scorching hot! Despite that, it does worths it. Ooohhh, and that's where the Narnia - Prince Kaspian was shot (the beginning part of the film),

update: Birthday 2009

2009-12-28T16:38:00.005+13:00

I finally finished my course........well 2 weeks ago..

but I'm so lazy to log on here and write the blog.

So yeah, first update would be about my birthday this year.

I celebrated one day later with Tanya in Tauranga, who is borned same day but 11 years younger than me. Thanks to Max who brought us there.....and we had fish and chips by the beach ^^

I got bday presents from Marlene ^^ a handmade card!!

A present from my brother, Max - big bear~~~

Daddy's baptism

2009-12-13T20:56:00.006+13:00

Finally, after so many years!

Daddy's baptised here in Hamilton Mandarin Church.

He's awesome~~~

Have seen a lot of changes in him since I was small~~

Below are some pictures for you all to see ^^

Beautiful

2009-11-04T18:27:00.009+13:00

Beautiful
詞：罗建明曲：方嘉雄

上帝不曾承諾過

永遠風平浪靜

煩惱不停止

沒有誰能解釋

生活就是這樣子

只是一次又一次

從放棄到堅持

埋怨到認識

我不得不證實

你愛我那麽真實

經過時間的滲透

我會變的Beautiful

等痛過了熬過了

就像蝴蝶蛻變

翩翩起舞

走過淚水的交錯

愛就變的Beautiful

我經歷了學會了

信心慢慢長成大樹

把風擋住

雨后放晴的天空

會有出現彩虹

懂得人很多

看到的卻不夠

會心傷的更不說

沒有人可以輕鬆

生活一樣要過

也許有時候我還是會出錯

但我知道要牽他手

經過時間的滲透

我會變的Beautiful

曾給過了抛棄了

路雖難走我卻不會孤獨

走過淚水的交錯

心境變得Beautiful

等經歷了就懂了

信心是你給的禮物

我已守住

这首歌在玛玲的blog上听到后，就跟她分享最近的感觉就好像这首歌写的。然后她就email过来了这首歌。听了之后很喜欢很喜欢！

上帝没有应许天色常蓝人生的旅途花香常漫
但是却应许生活有力

不習慣

2009-10-15T22:20:00.001+13:00

這個禮拜
覺得怪怪的~~~~~~~~~
好不習慣啊~~~~~

最後一個禮拜

2009-10-12T10:09:00.002+13:00

最後一個禮拜的上課了
其實也沒什麽課了
就一堆作業（3個）都在這個禮拜内要交

然後詩詩來了一句：
星期四要不要去Dressmart?
好誘惑人~~~~

好了，不說了
趕快寫作業，星期四也許能去
哈哈哈哈哈~~~

Tired~~~

2009-10-07T10:15:00.002+13:00

最近已經盡量早睡覺了

可是還是到9-10點才醒 = ="

醒來之後還不是一般的累 T_T

我真佩服那些可以不用睡覺的人

或者就算很晚睡也能早醒

This week have to hand in one assignment, which I have started drafting

and next week 3 assignments....which I haven't start a thing! Well, there's one that's a collaborative assignment, so it's good that there are a few more brains thinking toghether rather than me alone.

But something exciting is:

only got 2 weeks of study left!!!!! hehe

and then 7 weeks of practicum!

Can't wait to see what centre I'm going into

and the cute bunch of droolies....

背經

2009-10-01T21:51:00.003+13:00

今年訂了目標一定要背5段長的經文。
爲什麽只有5段呢？因爲我怕自己功課忙做不到所以就先從少一點開始。
會想要開始背經也是因爲滕叔叔從去年開始就在Youth Group裏面讓那些年輕人開始背，
而自己做到一半也放棄了，所以今年就開始也繼續從少一點的開始。

然後看了《哈利路亞噢巴桑》這本書之後，發現崔子實牧師是在40多嵗念神學的時候
逼自己背經文的，如果當時40多嵗的她可以做到，那我也要！！

這個禮拜的目標是詩篇1
所以這個禮拜每天都在背這一篇

不從惡人的計謀
不站罪人的道路
不坐褻慢人的座位
惟喜愛耶和華的律法
晝夜思想這人便為有福
他要像一棵樹栽在溪水旁按時侯結果子葉子也不枯乾
凡他所做的盡都順利。

惡人並不是這樣
乃像糠秕被風吹散
因此儅審判的時候惡人必站立不住
罪人在義人的會中也必這樣

因爲耶和華知道義人的道路
惡人的道路卻必滅亡。

What do you do when you get stressed?

2009-09-19T18:57:00.002+12:00

I find out when I get stress with my assignments, I want to run away from it instead of sitting still in front of the book @_@
and then, lots of authentic cuisine will pop up in my mind....

Char Kuey Tiaw
Char Bee Hoon
Thai Rice Noodle Soup
Ice Kacang
Taiwanese Beef Noodles
Penggang Fish
I think I miss a lot Malaysian food~~~~~~

再5個禮拜

2009-09-18T07:40:00.003+12:00

圖：Coromandel

再5個禮拜
就no more readings啦~~~~
我很期待
最近的作業是每個禮拜2個
感覺上時間都不夠用~~~~
最慘的是18/10，那個禮拜要交3個功課
不過神總是在最後的關頭開一條出路，
所以，還是先別把話説死哈哈

最近也在開始申請明年的工作了
突然之間被Tauranga這個城市所吸引
因爲它靠海，還有山
更被Bethlehem這個小鎮所吸引 --那天開車路過那裏的時候
覺得這個住宅區有一種寧靜感，而且地都很大~~~~房子都太漂亮了而且是天價！
我覺得要投資就投那裏吧哈哈哈阿哈哈！

還有另外一個地方就是Coromandel
不過我還沒去過
只是看照片覺得哪裏很漂亮
也靠海

我不知道爲什麽
選的都是靠海的城市/小鎮
只覺得我想明年和後年
想要一個break~~~
靠山靠海的地方就是最棒的選擇

上帝，開路吧~~~~=P

烏龍變祝福

2009-09-08T11:18:00.003+12:00

我擺了個大烏龍~~~~~~

因爲這個周末教會要舉辦‘經歷神’營會
所以呢，周末的敬拜練習全改了：主日的改到禮拜四；禱告會的改到下禮拜一。
而我，不知道是緊張什麽，就認爲都在這個禮拜。
就到處發txt說是昨晚要練習

然後我們到的人都在看布告欄上的練習時間
還討論說應該要另外貼個通告，或者highlight起來什麽的
結果，我在仔細一看：禱告會練習時間是14/9 @_@
我整個想找個地洞！！！
然後我又馬上發給學辰和Tony
發完后，我看到學辰出現了，整個很無奈的表情
超尷尬的！幸好Tony打工沒來

不過，后面聽説我的烏龍變成彥辰在營會敬拜團的祝福了
因爲學辰被抓去當他的吉他手了
張銘昨晚也幫忙音控了哈哈

而我~~~~~~~落荒而逃回家念書了

大教訓：練習時間一定要看好

心該收了

2009-09-02T11:37:00.002+12:00

上半個學期，感覺没像上個學期那麽拼了
雖然成績還不錯可是感覺沒那麽好了

過了這個放假，該開始收心
好好做最後的衝刺了
要不然我明年的計劃全都泡湯了

只剩兩個月的上課時間+7個禮拜的實習
加油！！！

A day out - Te Waihou walkway & Mount Maunganui

2009-09-02T10:49:00.008+12:00

昨天終于實現了跟兩位帥哥的出遊行動，也碰巧是張銘的生日哈哈。想說，上帝真的好愛他，前面的幾次不是我有事，就是下大雨，哈哈！
第一站，我們到了Te Waihou,　看了這條很美的小溪。水真的是很藍很清澈！連水草都長得很漂亮！聽説，Putaruru的飲用水都從這條小溪供給的！我本來想走到河邊去喝的，可是旁邊的地都已經被泡開了，所以不敢在往下走了，除非真的是夏天的時候去，直接跳進河裏，哈哈！　　　　　　　　　　　看下面這張，沒騙你們吧！

因爲只用了幾十分鈡走了Te Waihou, 我們又臨時決定跑去Tauranga爬山- Mount Maunganui.　差點又要倒閉森林，幸好這次比上次去Raglan的時候好多了。我們真的是用爬的，手腳並用的爬上去，因爲覺得走樓梯太痛苦了，因爲階梯太高了。遇到了一個老人家，看到我爬的氣喘喘的，我跟他抱怨說這兩個傢伙真的是在挑戰我的極限。

　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　這張是差不多在頂上照的。我后面的就是昨天的壽星！

　　　　　　　　　　　　　　
　　　　　　　　　　　下山的途中遇到的母綿羊和小綿羊！

是怎樣啊？

2009-08-29T18:31:00.003+12:00

又要開始面臨前途茫茫
找工作的時候了
其實也沒有很‘茫’啦，
紐西蘭幼教的工作是很多
只是我不知道我該留下來還是要去其它城市看看

留下有留下的好處
走有走的好處

上帝，幫我選吧！！！
我好矛盾~~~

2009的第二個受洗 Second

2009-08-20T09:20:00.004+12:00

8月19號

我們教會又有13位弟兄姐妹受洗了*歡呼！！！！！*

4位是我們youth的小小孩！真高興他們那麽小就立定心志跟隨耶穌

我為他們的祝福禱告是希望他們成爲提摩太

不叫人小看他們年輕，卻在各樣的事情上面成爲衆人的榜樣，也有耶穌的智慧和身量

好愛他們！！！

還有還有

我們家的老豆也在牧師的帶領下決志樂

昨晚的禱告會也有去噢！

Finally....

2009-08-16T21:50:00.003+12:00

Finally, I've finished an assignment on transition and mana tangata (contribution)...and next week, I have another assignment due T_T I wish this year will fly by soon.....

Meanwhile, I'll just take a break and watch some movies...hehe!

"Are you giving up on Me?"

2009-07-30T21:15:00.004+12:00

Have been contemplating about writing this for a few days. So yeah, decided to write it out to be an encouragement for people who are starting to lose faith.

I have been praying for a matter for over a year, and I personally believe that He has given me a lot of evidences from the bible verses, sermons and through dreams by saying that He's going to make this matter possible. And yet, in reality, nothing has happened. I was a bit discouraged by that. I thought to myself, probably I have misunderstood God; probably, God meant something else; probably, it's just my feeling that this is going to happen bla bla bla

A few nights ago, I laid down on bed, praying as usual before bedtime, telling and asking God if I can give up, and I stated all the reasons thinking I have all the right reasons to give up. When I was praying (not praying in silent, I have voice coming out from my mouth), then a voice asked me in Mandarin (I was praying in Mandarin, by the way), "妳是在放棄我嗎(Are you giving up on ME)?" And I was like stunned, and shocked. I couldn't continue praying anymore because this question really strikes me!

That voice sounded that the Holy Spirit is hurt, upset, and discouraged. I thought my giving up is only on that matter, and that was my only intention: to not think about that matter, but then only the Holy Spirit searches for hearts, and He knows what I think. He knows that I don't mean surrender, I meant give up, as in totally I want to ignore that matter, and just let it be.

But when He asked that question, I realised that I cannot give up just like that, because there is a spiritual war that is being fought for in the spiritual realm whenever every Chritians prayed(Reference: Daniel 10:12-14). And I believed that when God asked me that question, He wanted me to know that He is in the progress of answering my prayer, but then when I told Him that I wanted to give up, He wouldn't be able to do anymore. That was why He sounded upset and hurt. After that, I made up to Him and told Him that I will continue to pray abt that matter until it is achieved. Even though sometimes I still have doubt, I prayed that He will take away all my doubts and that I can persist until that matter is achieved.

For my dear brothers and sisters out there, probably you are like me, prayed and thought that matter was unheard by God. But I just have to say, keep pressing in, persist, and proclaim that God's promises never fail!

After this incidence, I came up with a quote(remember to cite me ok ok? =P):

If you give up, you are actually giving up on God

I'm spoilt to the core ^^

2009-07-29T10:33:00.004+12:00

Two weeks ago, Uncle John has been wanting to cooke me Hainanese Chicken Rice. Everytime he sees me, he would say, "Xia, I cook chicken rice for you ya", lol
but then due to some reason, we can't go over last Monday. And then on Saturday, tidak jadi lagi (oops, excuse me, it means "it didn't happen again")
Then, last Sunday evening, we finally had our chicken rice! And Saratok ikan masin (Saratok salted fish), which according to Uncle, Saratok has the best salted fish.And also home-brewed beer by Uncle John. I only had 2 small glasses, not enough!!!!!!!!!!!! hahahaha

will post the photos up later

I miss M'sia food.............................and friends......T_T

We are the Shepherds ^^

2009-07-29T09:52:00.002+12:00

During my meditation time with God, He gave me these verses which convicted and reminded me of my ministry.
靈修的時候，上帝給了我一段經文，讓我為自己也為我所服事的羊群警醒禱告。

"Keep watch over yourselves and all the flock of which the Holy Spirit has made you overseers. Be shepherds of the church of God, which he bought with his own blood. I know that after I leave, savage wolves will come in among you and will not spare the flock. Even from your own number men will arise and distort the truth in order to draw away disciples after them. So be on your guard! Remember that for three years I never stopped warning each of you night and day with tears." (Acts 20:28-31)
聖靈立你們作全群的監督，你們就當為自己謹慎，也為全群謹慎，牧養神的教會，就是他用自己血所買來的（或作‘救贖’的）。我知道我去后，必有兇暴的豺狼進入你們中間，不愛惜羊群。就是你們中間，也必有人起來，說悖謬的話，要引誘門徒跟從他們。所以你們應當警醒，紀念我三年之久晝夜不住地流淚，勸誡你們各人。（使徒行傳20：28-31）

These verses reminded me the importance of my ministry that I am a shepherd that is appointed by God to watch out for myself and the youths, especially in their spiritual life. And just like Nehemiah and his people, when they were building the walls of Jerusalem, they had their weapons with them even when they went to get water (Nehemiah 4: 15-21). Nehemiah and his people's watchfulness have reminded me to be alert ALWAYS.
這些經文提醒了我，原來是神力我作這一群孩子的監督，不管是他們的行爲，甚至他們的靈命，我們也要在那一天，在神的面前交帳. 這幾節的經文也讓我想到舊約的尼希米和所有的猶太人在建造耶路撒冷城牆的時候，他們連去打水都帶著兵器(尼希米記：4：15-21）。他和他百姓的謹慎的態度提醒了我，不論什麽時候都要警醒。

I hope these verses have given some lights to everyone that is in the ministry like me, no matter where you are. For those who are in Youth/Teenage Ministry, I am thankful to have peers that can share the experiences with me through your blogs, especially to those that are in Miri...you all know who you are! =) Let us just keep praying for each other, and till the time we meet, may the favour of the Lord our God rest upon us; establish the work of our hands for us .
我希望不論你在哪裏，這些經文也帶給所有服事的人一些亮光。我很感恩因爲我有一群很棒的同工分享他們在帶領青少年的經歷，尤其是在美里的弟兄姐妹們....你們知道你們是誰！=）希望我們經常為對方禱告，直到我們在見面的日子,願神監立我們手所作的工.

Raglan Trip

2009-07-21T10:10:00.005+12:00

星期天，聚會完后我們幾個一起在“新天地”吃了午餐

張銘提議我們該出去走走

於是大家就（除了我）回去換衣服了或者拿相機。

開了45分鐘的車（windy road, and I felt dizzy all the way)

終于抵達了Bridal Falls

顧名思義，你們看那瀑布有沒有像新娘的頭紗?很美吧~~~~

不過我差點就不能從這個地方出來了哈哈！
秘密！

Anyways,然後我們也去了海邊....

我最愛的地方哈哈！

Captivating

2009-07-19T20:40:00.003+12:00

Book reviewed written in Sept 22, 2007

謝謝Jennifer的介紹這是一本很棒的書﹐棒到我希望可以買給所有我認識的姐妹們說到了神如何在造女人的時候把祂的形像放在我們裡面而撒旦又為什麼一直的要攻擊女人也說到了我們可以怎樣的回到神的裡面從新的找到祂當初創造我們的時候所給我們的一個公主的身份。And because beauty is the essence of God, that's why we long for beauty too.

Some excerpts from the book:

I don't think I'm alone in this. Have you ever wondered why the Cinderella story keeps haunting us? Not only is it a perennial favourite of little girls; women love it too. Think of all the movies made along its themes, moves like Pretty Women and Ever After and A Cinderella Story and Maid in Manhattan. Why is this notion of a hidden princess (and a prince who comes ot find her) so enduring? Is there something in our hearts that is trying to speak to us? Is it just fantasy, excapism? Or is there something more?

The desire of a woman's heart and the realities of a woman's life seem an ocean aprt. Oh, we long for romance and an irreplaceable role in a great story; we long for beauty. But that's not the life we have. The result is a sense of shame. Having listened to the hearts of women for many, many years, both in the context of friendship and in the counseling office, we are struck by how deeply and universally wmen struggle with their self-worth. "I feel like a house hold appliance," one woman confessed to us. Now, this is not to say that men don't also wrestle with their sense of worth. But there is something deeper to this struggle for women, and far more universal. And there are reasons for it, reasons unique to Eve and her daughters.

............

The story of Eve holds such rich treasures for us to discover. The essence and purpose of a woman is unveiled here in the story of her creation. These profound, eternal, mythic themes are written not just here in the coming of Eve, but in the soul of every woman after. Woman is the crown of creation - the most intricate, dazzling creature on earth. She has a crucial role to play, a destiny of her own.And she, too, bears the image of God, but in a way that only the feminine can speak. What can we learn from her? God wanted to reveal something about himself, so he gave us Eve. When you are with a woman, ask yourself, what is she telling me about God? It will open up wonders for you.

First, you'll discover that God is relational to his core, that he has a heart for romance. Second, that he longs to share adventures with us - adventures you cannot accomplish without him. And finally, that God has a beauty to unveil. A beauty that is captivating and powerfully redemptive.

有興趣的就去買來看吧我自己反正是受益良多在看這本書的時候﹐聖靈在我身上的工作還滿多的希望你們看了之後也都有很大的得著﹗

Who is your God?

2009-07-18T14:43:00.003+12:00

Who is your God?

Seriously I'm asking this question...

You've been a Christian for such a long time

but the throne of life doesn't belong to Him

but to yourself

You handle things your ways

instead of His ways

You don't think He's big enough to cover all your worries

You think if you can't handle it, He can't handle it too

That's why God has never done anything big in your life

coz you limited Him!!

"August Rush"

2009-07-18T05:25:00.004+12:00

My lil sis, Ruth rented this dvd the other day! And I just love it to the core! Haha, men that play guitar just attracts me =P

I love some of the quotes from this movie:

Sometimes the world tries ot knock it out of you. But I believe in music the way that some people believe in fairy tales. I like to imagine that what I hear came from my mother and father. Maybe the notes I hear, are the same ones they heard, the night they met. Maybe that's how they found each other. Maybe that's how they'll find me. I believe that once upon a time, long ago, they heard the music and followed it.

Listen. Can you hear it? The music. I can hear it everywhere. In the wind... in the air... in the light. It's all around us. All you have to do is open yourself up. All you have to do... is listen.

You never quit on your music. No matter what happens. Cuz anytime something bad happens to you, that's the one place you can escape to and just let it go. I learned it the hard way. And anyway, look at me. Nothing bad's gonna happen. You gotta have a little faith.

What do you want to be in the world? I mean the whole world. What do you want to be? Close your eyes and think about that.

Somewhere along the way

2009-07-14T14:18:00.002+12:00

Somewhere along the way...
I dropped my faith
And then I went back
and picked it up again

I will keep it safe
where there is no person
no matters, or objects
that can take my faith away again

Appointment in Jerusalem

2009-07-11T19:57:00.005+12:00

I finished this book during my two days of lying in bed. When I started reading it, I just couldn't resist it. This is a good book for new Christians as Lydia explained how she met God when she earnestly seek Him. God also showed her the purpose of her life and lead her to Jerusalem with where she started children's home. She left her prominent Job in Denmark, and arrived Jerusalem penniless, but God is faithful and provide her all the while she's there.

During my read, I felt the excitement, the fear, the nervousness that she have experienced, and yes, get this book if you want to know more about God. I'm sure I would read it again and again!

Also, from this book, I only realised that actually we Christians owed big time to Jerusalem. I'll quote the page from this book on what she has said when she experienced the siege between the Muslims and the Jews, and when she meditated on the Bible, the verses of Isaiah 62:6-7.

...Searching out God's purpose for Jerusalem led me on naturally to His purpose for Israel.The two, I discovered, were intertwined and could not be separated. The very prophecies that promised mercy and restoration to Jerusalem promised the same also to Israel. The first could not be fulfilled apart from the second.

And how many promises of restoration for Israel I found! From first to last, the prophetic writings were full of them. How far, I wondered, had these promises already been fulfilled? In the decade since the war of 1914-1918, a steady trickle of Jews had been coming back to their land. But - if I rightly understood what I was reading - this was but a prelude to something far greater. God had actually committed Himself, through His prophets, to regather them as an independent nation in their own land. To this end, He had declared, He would bend all the forces of history....."What a strangely warped view we Christians have had all these years," I finally said to myself. "We have acted as though we were sufficient in ourselves, owing nothing to Israel or Jerusalem and needing nothing from them. And yet the truth is that God's plan of peace and blessing for all nations can never come to completion until both Israel and Jerusalem are restored - and He expects us to be His cowokers in bringing this to pass."

This part of the book has opened my eyes up, that we as Christians should pray hard for the peace and the people in the Palestine area, if it's not for this nation (the Jews), we wouldn't have got save and become Christians. If this part of the world has no peace, then there would be no peace at the other part of the world. This place seems small, and not an eye-catching place, yet it has its unseen forces that can destroy the whole world.

This is only my own understanding for this part that she wrote, and I hope all who has read this article, you would go borrow or buy this book. It really worths a read!

Recently...

2009-07-11T06:20:00.002+12:00

Finished my practicum last Tuesday, and I love the place and the children. The teachers were great too! They've accepted me as part of their own, except the regulations where they can't do much about it.

Adding bonus to it, there are a few teachers that I came to know are Christians! One even went to Peru to do mission work with the children. I think God must have used her to talk to me while in that practicum that one day I will go to the mission field and do the work of children. She experienced a lot of God's provision during that period, and listening to her story was just amazing!

And and, at the last day of my prac, they provided nice morning tea for me ^^, a certificate, and a storybook (for future teaching use).

A dream

2009-07-11T06:11:00.002+12:00

2 nites ago, I dreamt that I was back in high school years, and I didn't do my homework! I felt so strange, why on earth would I have forgotten all about my homework, and I could only apologise to my teacher that it must have slipped my mind.

Then, the scenery changed again. I dreamt that I had a black teacher teaching me, and she asked the whole class to open up the bible to 2 Timothy 2:22, and then I woke up! The next day, I got the bible and turn to the page thinking God must have wanted to tell me something that is important. And truly it is....It says:

Flee the evil desires of youth, and pursue righteousness, faith, love and peace, along with those who call on the Lord out of a pure heart.

I actually didn't know why is it this verse that God gave me, because I was asking Him about other stuff. Probably He knows all my inner thoughts that have been there for a long time, and wants me to deal with them...

updates!

2009-06-19T23:11:00.002+12:00

Hiya ppl!
Have been enjoying my practicum for 2 weeks now..
and everything went well!
I love it! I love it! I love it!
The children are just amazing!

I'm with the under 2s children, and they are just so cute!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Everytime when I have my hands open wide, and said 'cuddles', they would give me a great hugs n cuddles! That's the motivation to work as an educator! haha!
I'm just wondering, probably I would be a united nations' mama - adopting children from all over the world one day! haha!

Anyways, practicum went well, and my lecturer came n visited me today
and ticked almost every boxes with VS (Very Satisfactory) ^^
So, yeah! That's mostly abt me for these two weeks....

找耶穌就像在盒子堆裏找巧克力

2009-06-14T17:32:00.004+12:00

小小P好可愛！
上個禮拜五因爲August先生沒來
所以就幫他帶了小男生那一組
我們查經查到尼哥底母去找耶穌
是深夜偷偷去找他的，因爲他的身份的關係
然後我就跟他們說，你們看像尼哥底母這個官都為了要認識信仰而去找耶穌
我們是不是也需要。
然後小小P突然就冒出一句話説：“就好像在盒子堆裏找巧克立一樣”

我就說，對對
我們找耶穌就要像在盒子堆裏找巧克立一樣認真。

小孩子的天真和單純的信心的讓我很感恩！
難怪耶穌說不要禁止小孩到我這裡來
因爲神囯裏正是這樣的人。

pictures from: http://img.metro.co.uk/i/pix/2008/04/boxchocsPA_450x623.jpg

pls do give a hand...

2009-06-04T12:32:00.002+12:00

In Waikato times yesterday, I saw that one of the boys that I worked with before is getting a dog from Ohio, USA. These dogs are specially trained to help ASD and other special needs children.

I hope anyone who's reading this article can be generous and help out these families, as the bible says 'give and you shall receive'.

http://www.stuff.co.nz/waikato-times/news/2467285/Wanted-dogs-to-aid-in-autism-battle ( Article about these families who would like to get the dogs from US)

http://www.4pawsforability.org/ (4 Paws for Ability Organisation in US)

www.4pawsnz.110mb.com (The story of the 4 families in New Zealand that are fundraising for these dogs)

God bless you all!!!!

just an update

2009-05-31T21:20:00.006+12:00

I finished 2 books out of the three =)
The third one hasn't arrive yet..I thought it would have arrived last Monday
but somehow......no news from the shop.

Yesterday, got another 7 books out of the uni library, preparing for the assignment on challenges of inclusive education...I finished this book in a few hours, it's called "Retarded isn't stupid, Mom!" Laugh and cried with the author when I was reading it...if anyone is interested in this area, it's a good book!

Anyways,
juz thought of sharing...
For the past week or so, we are meditating on the book of Ruth.
When I read it, I admire Ruth's faith towards God and submissive towards her mother-in-law. She is an amazing lady, she went and lie under the feet of Boaz after listening to her mother-in-law. But I think God was in this, or else, nothing would have startled Boaz to wake up and find a lady under her feet. He would have slept through the night, and Ruth's name would be ruined, and probably be killed at that time to be found with a man.
And the story of Ruth went to lie at Boaz's feet is similar to Adam's and Eve's story too...where God lead the woman to the man, and then God starts to dwell in both of the man that He intended them to be together. I am thinking, God probably does like matchmaking a lot =P

After reading this, I'm sure God will bring me to my "Jacob" just like what He did to Ruth and Eve...or probably 'he' will come to me.. lol

Tomorrow and the whole next week, I will be reading the remaining 6 books T_T
It was supposed to be a holiday (Queen's birthday).....sigh

Got 3 books on my shelf...

2009-05-22T17:16:00.002+12:00

so...
these few days apart from my assignments to use the internet
I will snuggle up in my bed
with a good book and a cup of hot coffee
with this cold weather....

will blog after a while....
have fun with your life
and enjoy everything....^^

xoxoxo

God is so good!

2009-05-21T00:14:00.003+12:00

Tonite, after prayer meeting. Got a text from Mindy asking if I can play for her at next Wednesday's prayer meeting coz she will be outstationed.
I was a bit reluctant, coz have an assignment to hand in on Sunday, and it's about designing an advertisement on how to promote a childcare centre, esp. with the topics of quality environments....anyways, I said 'yes' because I'm missing the serving life even though I only haven't been playing for 2 weeks, and I miss playing the piano. Then, I texted her back and tell her she has to pray for me to have thoughts coming in for the advert. assignment.

After that, I went and check my email, and got a mail from the lecturer saying that it's postponed to next Wednesday!!!!!!!!!!!! Coz she has totally forgotten about that assignment, and she has been away. I'm like.........whoa!!!!!!! Praise God!!!!!!!!!!!

Like what I've written last year in March after an incident in prayer meeting (in my diary), when we are with God, we're like in a big theme park of God, we get adrenalin pumps and excitement and everything; we don't know what next step will be, and where we will be, but then, we will landed safe in the hands of God. He's just amazing~~~

I'm just fascinated by Him!
and thoroughly in love with Him!!!!!!!!

Need to be alert

2009-05-20T12:42:00.002+12:00

It's funny how sometimes
when we handed in everything to God
we'll be tempted straightaway!

And how the spiritual warfare is so real and is happening
just around you and your friends every minute and every second.

Be alert people!
no matter what the world says,
it is what God said that is powerful.
When everything seems to be going down the wrong path,
remember these verse:
For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD,
"plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. (Jeremiah 29:11)

Even we are faithless
God is faithful

The road of faith (2)

2009-05-18T13:04:00.003+12:00

I realised,
the road of faith is really difficult to walk
if my eyes are not on Him
but on this earthly things
I will fall.
And it doesn't mean that after listening to a sermon
I will suddenly become a person with a lot of faith.

He is a good God
during my meditation time this morning
He gave me the verses in Psalms 81:1-4

Sing for joy to God our strength;
Shout aloud to the God of Jacob!
Begin the music, strike the tambourine, play the melodious harp and lyre.
Sound the horn at the New Moon, and when the moon is full, on the day of our Feast;
this is a decree for Israel, an ordinance of the God of Jacob. (Psalms 81:1-4)

I find this hard
but God said that's a decree and an ordinance
even during the hard times.
Then He reminded me of King Jehosaphat (2 Chronicles 20)
who seek the will of God
and set up the worship team back then
to sing and praise God
during the fighting of God's army and the army of Moabites, Ammonites and some Meunites.
When they sing and praise, the God set ambushes against the enemy.

Teach me Father, to praise You
and to trust You
All the time!
Because of who You are.
In Jesus' name,
Amen!

12/4/09 Baptism

2009-04-26T12:33:00.011+12:00

Before baptising: David, Benjamin, Jean, Holly

After baptising. Me and the Yee's siblings (Jean and Benjamin)

Holly & me

4 of my youth group members have baptised on this special day!! =)

May God continue to lead them in lives and they will love and know God more!

可以放手, 但不能放棄

2009-04-26T09:07:00.003+12:00

被放棄, 是一件很殘忍的事情.

去年, 有些年輕人的作為
讓我看到或者聽到了以後
我也曾經想要放棄他們不管了
我也覺得自己的擔心是多餘的
好幾晚都睡不好

但是, 在禱告中
上帝提醒我說
"不要以為你比別人好.難道你年少的時候沒犯過錯嗎?
我有放棄過你嗎?你該給他們一個成長空間,讓他們從錯誤中學習."
我馬上跟神說對不起. 因為我得救, 不是靠著自己的行為,而是神的恩典為我完成了救恩.

在神國里, 如果有放棄這兩個字
我想,我們都完了
祂對我們的愛, 正是祂要我們學習的榜樣,不是嗎?
只有這樣
我們才能為祂贏得更多的靈魂.

加油!
一起學習放手, 但是不能放棄的功課吧!

=)

＝）

2009-04-23T23:43:00.003+12:00

For these past few days I was so excited

because God has said that He will do it for me and the obstacles will all be removed to prepare the way for his people!!!

And He also said that He will prepare watchmen for me

and pray day and night without rest, and let Him has no rest as well......=) When I see these verses in Isaiah, I really laughed out and said to God "I'm so going to pray until You got frustrated of me!!"

So yeah, for all those of you

who are praying and seeking His will, pray earnestly and keep knocking at His door

He will answer your prayers

But whatever the outcome is,

He is sovereign and He loves and treasures you

in His heart!

photo from: http://media.photobucket.com/image/Jesus%20loves%20you%20and%20me/zeehines/Pictures/window.jpg

信心之路 The road of faith

2009-04-19T23:04:00.006+12:00

今天姜鵬哥分享的信息很棒!
Jiang Peng's sermon was awesome today!
他說他很緊張,我卻覺得對於第一次講道的他來說真的好棒!
He said he was nervous, but for a person that is preaching for the first time, I think he did well!

他說的,也正是我昨天在禱告中
跟上帝尋求的
我跟神說
我對你很有信心,可是我像是在大海中游泳
看不到一個海島或一個浮體讓我確實的抓在手裡
當別人問我的時候
我沒辦法確實的說:這是上帝跟我說的, 就是會這樣成就.
我只能相信祂會成就
甚麼時候，我不知道
怎樣成就，我更不知道
我只知道我會游到岸就是了

因為我發現, 別人對我說不可能的時候
我只能生氣
與其說生其他人的氣,其實更多的是生自己和上帝的氣
氣上帝為甚麼不直接將事情成就了
而故意延後讓我和旁邊的人都在猜測.

姜鵬哥今天的信息直接就進入了我的心里
我覺得上帝透過他告訴了我很多...

1.亞伯拉罕之所以能被稱為'信心之父'也是經過上帝的磨練.
他也曾經自己在聽到上帝的聲音以後, 用人為的方法去解決事情
結果搞了一堆麻煩事情,讓上帝幫他"檫屁股"(e.g.在埃及,欺騙法老說撒拉是他的妹妹; 跟夏甲同房懷的孩子以為就是上帝所允許要給他的兒子,結果不是以實馬力,而是在他100歲時才生的以撒才是神應許他的後裔).
- 不能自己去解決上帝已經應許的事情.如果祂說"相信祂", 就相信祂

2.跟神建立關係
很多時候, 我們尋求太多人的意見, 而非上帝的意見, 導致上帝放在我們心里的聲音有點模糊掉了.我覺得,這是我要學的功課: 當我在給別人意見的時候,一定要好好為那個人的事情禱告,要不然就不要照著自己的想法給意見. 當我尋求意見的時候, 學習分辨哪些是從主來的話語.Last but not the least,好好禱告,跟神建立好的關係 - 祂一定樂意把事情的奧妙顯示給我們知道.
如經上所記: 上帝為愛祂的人所預備的是眼睛未曾看見,耳朵未曾聽見,人心也未曾想到的.只有上帝藉著聖靈向我們顯明了,因為聖靈參透萬事,就是上帝深奧的事也參透了. 除了在人里頭的靈,誰知道人的事?像這樣,除了上帝的靈, 也沒有人知道上帝的事(林前2:9-11).

3.獻上自己所愛
這個.........超級難!!!!亞伯拉罕一聽到上帝說,"把以撒獻給我為燔祭"的時候, 他一定覺得這個上帝是個出爾反爾的上帝.不是要應許成為多國之父,還後裔如天上的星星,地上的沙那麼多嗎?但是亞伯拉罕還是聽從了上帝的話...
我覺得這部分對我來說超級超級超級困難...我連把我所愛的帶去給上帝都已經很困難了..還要我親手拿刀一刀刺下去...T_T....但是但是, 真的只有獻上的時候才會真正經歷神的信實和預備超過我們所求所想.

這篇文章不是姜鵬哥完全的信息...更多是自己的感想 =)
我已經知道上帝給我的回應是甚麼了 =D

Be a god-fearing person

2009-04-18T22:03:00.004+12:00

Listened to Rhema Broadcast the other day
while driving to sumwhere, and I heard this phrase, I think it's by Tak Bhana from one of the churches in Auckland:

Don't magnify your problem
Magnify your God

It is true that when we faced problems in our lives, it won't be too big that God can't handle
We can only focus on God to help us.
A bible verse reminds me that God is always at the side of people who honour him and fear him, and remove the obstacles that is blocking his people.

Father God,
teach me to be a person that fear you
and surrender myself whole-heartedly unto you
and you will help me
to achieve the things that I can't achieve
In Jesus' name
Amen

Time flies....

2009-04-18T21:56:00.003+12:00

and 2 weeks' holiday is gone like that!
I really did enjoy my holiday to the full...
by doing nothing....=D

I'm kidding...
I did plant some veges again
and the class of baptism for the preteens went well =)
It was all God's work coz I don't think I did really make them understand every bit of it
but these kids are children of faith! Although they don't understand all those biblical terms but they understand that God loves them!
Oh, and I didn't know that I can translate that well.....coz in high school exams, there's a section in the paper that I can choose whether or not to translate it, and I would never touch that part because it is so difficult =P

and yes...online class resumes next week!
Praying for God's wisdom over my homework
and my time mangement has to be better than the 1st half of the sem!!

神的手好大!!!!

2009-04-14T21:23:00.002+12:00

昨天,跟飛飛出去了
她雖然很常下來,卻很難約出來聊天
昨天,趁著Easter假期的long weekend,她沒有要趕回去Auckland之前的時間全部是我的 =P

昨天我們一邊吃麵,一邊聊...
然後我覺得上帝對她好好啊!
她多年來的心願: 她父母可以接受主成為救主終於在她結婚那一天實現了!

她說她結婚的時候,她教會里的弟兄姊妹都獻出所有的來幫忙她
這些, 都看在特別從湖南趕來參加女兒結婚的父母的眼里
在晚上的婚宴里, 她的牧師跟她的爸爸說
如果他(牧師)把那瓶酒喝了, 他就要接受耶穌做救主
飛飛的爸爸欣然答應了,然後牧師救把他們全家的手握在一起
在婚宴上做了決志禱告

我聽的時候,都快哭了
就問飛飛她那晚是不是也哭了
她說她哭了...
我好高興啊...原本以為是沒有機會傳福音
卻藉著這樣大膽的一問,就得到了一條魚!

然後啊, 我覺得她好幸福啊!
有一個很棒的婆婆~~~
她婆婆是我認為我教會里
最喜樂的人,也是個很有智慧的婦人
我也希望我以後的婆婆也很棒!哈哈!

Anyways昨天真的是有很大的領受
飛飛,加油囉!
上帝一定會繼續擴張你的境界
凡你腳掌所踏之處都要賜給妳!!!!!!!!!!

Miss you!

21/3 婚禮

2009-04-09T12:03:00.004+12:00

21/3/09在Vilagrad參加了好友兼同工Toby和Zoe的婚禮

那婚禮好棒!

不知道為甚麼, 在婚禮上有一種好感動,好神聖的感覺

從他們的友誼進入到男女朋友的關係

再進入到夫妻的關係

都滿了神的同在和保守....

真心祝福他們所建立的家庭是蒙神祝福的家庭

並且把祝福不斷不斷的給出去 =)

好久...

2009-04-09T11:50:00.004+12:00

嗯,好久沒有更新了
前3個禮拜幾乎忙到整天掛在網上寫discussion...看電腦看到有點恐怖
幾乎每天到12點才睡...醒來後眼睛痛死了....
我真不知道做電腦系這行怎麼活的..尤其是跟網路有關的...
Anyways, 8 more months to go, and I'm done with it!

放假就讓自己放鬆一點的讀一些readings
然後..趕這裡拜六要上的受洗課程
希望上帝給我智慧, 來教導屬於祂的奧秘...
發現在準備的過程中,我也受教了! =)
上帝好棒!!!!!!

怪異事件

2009-03-25T21:53:00.002+13:00

已經是第二次了..

最近,只要是晚上出門,
離家前都會把corridor的燈打開..

第一次,我叫我妹開燈
回來後, 整個房子竟然是黑的..

第二次, 也就是今天
我開了燈, 也確認我自己沒有把燈關掉
就去教會的禱告會了
但是,回來後屋子又是黑的..
可是, 它不是fused掉..
而且, the strangest thing is that: the switch is never on...

Did someone actually come in n off it?
But the doors n windows are all closed...

莫名的煩躁+特別的朋友

2009-03-22T21:32:00.002+13:00

今天終於了解了
小雨偶爾會說的
"莫名的鬱悶"是甚麼意思了
不過, 這一天多的鬱悶也在看了一個大寶貝寫的文章之後
再爆笑了一陣就好很多了

小V真的是超級搞笑的
看她的故事就好像
看喜劇篇一樣
不怎麼搞笑的東西被她一說都會覺得很好笑.

超級愛你的啦,小V!!
HUGS!!!

好興奮~~

2009-03-22T17:28:00.003+13:00

哈哈..我帶的preteens group
有四位要上受洗班!!
希望他們年級小小就是與眾不同的
也在他們的學校影響其他的朋友

haha! The preteens group that I'm leading now
4 of them wanted to be baptised this coming Easter!
Praying that these 4 will be the outstanding ones among their peers
and be an inspiration to other people.

Slumdog Millionaire

2009-03-17T00:15:00.001+13:00

Went and watch this movie with Jade and Rahul. This is a good movie!

Can't wait for this season to pass

2009-03-16T22:41:00.004+13:00

Can't wait for these 9 months to past
as I've told Guoxiao a few days before....
because it's all about readings readings n more readings ><''

During the conversation with my Spiritual Mum - Aunt Jo a few days ago
God started reminding the dreams that He had put in me years ago
and the gifts and potential that He has given me.

I told her that I don't want to get married because it's the age of getting married
I want someone that possess the same dream as I do.
If there is no one, then I'll remain single for Him.
And finally I got an adult who understand this kind of concept =P

He reinforced it even more after the conversation of Aunt Jo.
Yesterday, when we went down to Rotorua to serve
A Kiwi lady that started a mission in Thailand came and share her testimonial
saying that every dream starts small....and one has to walk through darkness before the dream will come true.

Pls guard my heart before You, Dear Lord.
And that I walk in the path You are leading
Awaken my soul so that I may hear you & see you all along the way
I'm sure this season will pass with abundance blessings of Yours
along the way
I love you, Dad!

停止

2009-03-11T23:58:00.003+13:00

想停止所有的奢求
和妄想...

也許
真的是一個不能達到的願望

耶穌可愛你了!...

2009-03-10T22:01:00.003+13:00

今天到教會的時候, 所有的招待員都好忙的在發程序單..然後彥辰很快的衝過來把單張給了我
然後跟我說了一句: "耶穌可愛妳了!" 哈哈!

聽到這句話之後, 覺得超級特別
因為其他人聽到的都是"耶穌愛你"
我聽到的是"耶穌可愛你了!"

原本也心情有點差的
但是聽到這句話之後,就覺得
嗯,我是祂的至寶貴的女兒
心情就好很多了...=)

My bestest friends

2009-03-09T19:44:00.003+13:00

Missing you guys a lot!!!!!!!

And thanks for showing the ring, Rach! =)

The little man I love

2009-02-26T09:12:00.006+13:00

Went and pick my little man from school at lunch the other day.....and gosh! He can talk so much now!

When I first started work with him, he only used one word, and we have to work so hard to get 2 words out of his mouth with huge reinforcements. Nowadays, he can talk about his surroundings and his observations, and also, asking a lot of questions! I just thank God of how much He healed him. He also joined in a lot of story times and plays.

Nowadays, he can even go to school trips with Dexter (the golden poodle) in the family.....And gained a bit of responsibility like feeding the dog. And Dexter is a great dog too! He's the only dog that I can get aquaintant too..haha! No, it's just that he's a people dog..he likes it so much to be surrounded with people and play with the children so much.

New Sem starting

2009-02-25T13:07:00.003+13:00

My first practicum has officially finished!!!!!!
And new sem would start next week, with 4 papers and a mountain high of readings and assignments! When I started writing all the due dates in my calendar....I'm like oh crap! It's like they all due in May and June~~

anyways, i'll be good! i will pray harder for more wisdom to drop from heaven on me =P Also, I have planned my timetable out for the readings of the 4 papers...

ah!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! self-discipline!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
that means:
less facebook time *fingers crossed*
less msn *fingers crossed*

But I think, overall it's gonna be fun!!!!!

Eloi Eloi Lama Sabachthani

2009-02-25T12:54:00.002+13:00

"Eloi Eloi Lama Sabachtani"
This sentence got me when I was meditating in the morning on Mark 15.
When I repeatedly read that short passage, I started to weep.
Jesus was so close to Holy Father, and yet at that time when He was on the cross
The Father in heaven turned away from Jesus because of His salvation plan

I don't know how would a father feel
when he has to see his beloved son to be nailed onto the cross
and he didn't do anything about it......

I miss God

2009-02-23T22:52:00.003+13:00

These few days, I haven't really had a good time with God
although I tried hard to
but I always rush my time with Him
or either totally ignore Him...sigh

Have to really make up my time for Him.....=)

Practicum結束

2009-02-23T22:46:00.002+13:00

明天我的實習就正式告一段落了...
還沒結束呢, 就已經開始想念那邊的孩子們了
尤其是一個小女生Izzy!
她才在上個禮拜會跟我笑, 會要我抱
然後一切都結束了= =

跟她熟了以後才知道原來安靜的她
也很cheeky
幫她換尿片,還跑給我追...
叫她睡覺的時候, 她還會模仿我生氣的動作
害我不知道該笑還是該生氣

期待明天最後一天跟孩子們在一起....

Happy Valentine!!!!

2009-02-14T19:46:00.002+13:00

Happy Valentine's Day!!!

I love you all.....my family and my friends~~~

我是基督徒

2009-02-05T20:01:00.003+13:00

For the past weekend, I was in camp.....although I didn't experience God a lot in camp, because I was playing the piano for the whole session. 其實﹐在彈的時候﹐我希望我是在下面被神充滿的﹐但是事實不能改變﹐就一直邊彈邊禱告。看到很多弟兄姐妹被聖靈恩膏的時候﹐心裡真的是滿滿的感恩神願意用我這個器皿來服事祂。到了最後一天感恩見證分享的時候﹐滿想上去講的﹐可是實在是什麼都沒感覺到﹐除了一個“累”字﹐也沒其它了。

回到家以後﹐馬上把作業趕完交了﹐然後就睡著了~~~第二天早上開始實習﹐無意中發現帶我的也是個基督徒﹐好象那間幼稚園也是(不過﹐我沒問清楚)~~Anyways, 實習完後回家﹐看到桌子上有一封信﹐打開一看﹐我的獎學金批准了﹗﹗然後﹐在上網查成績﹐第一個作業也竟然可以拿A﹐我真的是興奮的想叫﹗哈哈﹗服侍神真的是超級棒的﹗﹗﹗﹗﹗﹗﹗﹗﹗﹗

然後那晚洗完澡之後﹐聖靈突然提醒我﹐“你為什麼不為你是基督徒而獻上感恩?” 這句話真的是把我敲醒了。祂把我帶回營會的光景﹐看到很多人是被罪捆綁的﹐而我卻能在營會“破除咒詛”的時刻里除了認自己的罪﹐我就在那裡感恩因為我有一個健康的家庭﹐愛我的父母。我在營會里也可以和從江子翠行道會來的牧師和同工一起服事~~~~~我真的覺得我太太太幸福了。=)

An Encounter

2009-02-03T23:30:00.004+13:00

Don't expect too much when you read the title! haha! But I find it amazing that a lady walked up to me to introduce a book that she has read long ago. This afternoon after my practicum, I went and stroll in Manna Bookstore, and while flipping through books, a lady came over and asked me if I have read this book called - Appointment in Jerusalem. And I said I haven't. She said she's given that book when she first became Christian, and til now, it's still her favourite book.

I haven't buy it yet, coz I have a lot of books to read at the moment, but if anyone is in short of books to read, try and get this from the Christian Bookstore =)

My favourite Uncle

2009-01-20T21:18:00.002+13:00

Since young, he's the one that I've always adored and loved.
A man with great humour and a person who can do reflexology massage well
everytime when he came over, I'll ask him to do the massage for me.
He's my eldest uncle in Dad's family, and my favourite uncle of all.

This afternoon, I got an email from my cousin saying that he passed away yesterday back in Malaysia. It was a shock to me, coz a few weeks back, I was just telling Dad that I missed him, and I want him to come over. And it will never happen again.....

I miss him
I miss the jokes that he told
I miss the times that how he made me laughed n laughed until my tears broke down
I miss him a thousand times T_T

Remembering you....

2009-01-19T22:18:00.002+13:00

今晚，没想到会听到你写过的歌 - 我的天堂
你走了有2年多了
MSN里的你的账号，我没删，也不想删
因为我怕一删掉，我就会忘记你这位
我自认的属灵哥哥

听着那首歌，我哭了
但是我想我不应该哭的
你在上面一定活得很开心

I'm just missing you....
and the wisdom that you had for me
I'm sure I'll see you soon up there....

=____________=

2009-01-19T01:21:00.002+13:00

1:21am
I'm wide awake~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
I want to sleep, but I can't.....
the fact of "your course is shrunk from 3 years to 1 year" made me a bit stressed and nervous....
coz I found myself wanting to do housework rather than reading my book.....

I have to pull myself back together......

1:30am
still awake.........
I better do some reading.....

>.>

Uni starts

2009-01-16T07:46:00.005+13:00

Although we attend classes on the 14th Jan, but the lecture didn't start until yesterday afternoon. I have met like 2 more M'sians!! yey!!!

And yesterday morning, we have this powhiri ceremony (a welcome ceremony) at our University's Marae, where in this occassion, it is the ceremony of welcoming the students into the big family of School of Education. Then, after all the speeches, we have this 'hongi' ceremony, where you will go up to each of them, and have a nose to nose touching ceremony. The Maori believed that when you touch nose with each other, two people's breath will unite or intermingle together, and that you're the people of the land and not a visitor anymore.

Uni starts tomorrow...

2009-01-13T14:13:00.002+13:00

Time flies.........and my class will start tomorrow!!!!
A bit scary.....coz haven't been reading academic stuff and assignments for 3 years now...I probably have forgotten all the APA referencing style.....Hopefully it will all be good!

Anticipating.....Excited.......and a bit nervous....hahahahah

Spiritual Loneliness

2009-01-09T01:06:00.008+13:00

every Christian in their walks of life

will face a time when they've to walk some of the journey alone

and no one around can seemed to understand

Even Jesus and Joseph faced that type of loneliness......

He came out and went, as was his custom, to the Mount of Olives; and the disciples followed him. When he reached the place, he said to them, "Pray that you not come into the time of trial." Then he withdrew from them about a stone's throw, kelt down, and prayed, "Father, if you are willing, remove this cup from me; yet, not my will but yours be done." [Then an angel from heaven appeared to him and gave him strength. In his anguish he prayed more earnest,y, and his sweat became like great drops of blood falling down on the ground.] When he got up from prayer, he came to the disciples and found them sleeping because of grief, and he said to them, "Why are you sleeping? Get up and pray that you many not come into the time of trial." - Luke 22:39-46

Once Joseph had a dream, and when he told it to his brothers, they hated him even more. He said to them, "Listen to this dream that I dreamed. There we were, binding sheaves in the field. Suddenly my sheaf rose and stood upright; then your sheaves gathered around it, and bowed down to my sheaf." His brothers said to him, "Are you indeed to reign over us? Are you indeed to have dominion over us?" So they hated him even more because of his dreams and his words. He had another dream, and told it to his brothers, saying , "Look, I have had another dream: the sun, the moon, and eleven stars were bowing down to me," But when he told it to his father and to his brothers, his father rebuked him, and said to him, "What kind of drea is this that you have had? Shall we indeed come, I and your mother and your brothers, and bow to the ground before you?" So his brothers were jealous of him, but his father kept the matter in mind. -Genesis 37:5-11

Only God has the answers to all the questions...

Keep trusting....

You never know what your journey is filled with when God is being 'mischievious'

yes, He is......

I can see Him laughing.....=)

He is good!

2009-01-06T11:13:00.005+13:00

耶和華是我的產業

是我杯中的分﹐

我所得的﹐你為我持守。

用繩量給我的地界﹐

坐落在佳美之處﹔

我的產業實在美好。

-詩篇16﹕5-6

Lord, you have assigned me my portion and my cup;

you have made my lot secure.

The boundary lines have fallen for me in pleasant places;

surely I have a delightful inheritance.

-Psalm 16:5-6

I love the chinese version of the first sentence, where in my translation it says , "Lord, you are my inheritance, and you are the portion in my cup."

At the last day of 2008, I've heard many testimonials saying that they are thankful because what God has blessed them with - health, financial, etc. And while listening, I'm envy of them because a lot of them have had blessings from the Lord. And then, the above bible verses came to me (in Chinese) that night, that moment. And, it kept repeating in my mind. It kinda make me think: what if God didn't heal them? what if God didn't give them what they wanted, would they still go up the stage and say 'thank you' to Him?

I'm thankful not because He has given me what I asked for, but He is my inheritance. And He is teaching me to surrender my own likes and wait for the best that He has for me.

I'm thankful because He loves me for who I am.

I'm thankful because He is Him.

May he be our own satisfaction....=)

Happy Belated New Year

2009-01-06T11:01:00.003+13:00

I know I'm a bit late...but

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!!!!!

Passion and Purity - some chinese quotes

2009-01-03T11:56:00.004+13:00

所有綠色植物的生長都奇妙的代表收放、得失、生死的過程。為了使花苞成形﹐一定要歷經裂開的階段﹐等花朵形成﹐花苞就得『釋放』了。花萼接著釋放了花朵﹐花瓣一定要捲起、死去﹐好讓果實得以成形。果子落下﹐裂開﹐放出了種子﹐種子就落在土里……。

少了這種『釋放』『鬆手』的過程﹐屬靈生命就無法持續下去。因為就在我們拒絕鬆手的那地方﹐成長就停止了。若我們對白白得來的東西緊抓不放﹐在該鬆手時不願鬆手﹐或不願任賜下東西的那一位隨祂的心意使用﹐就會阻礙了靈魂的成長。

- p128﹐《情慾與貞潔》

A meaningful Christmas!

2008-12-27T18:44:00.004+13:00

This happened on Christmas eve night! Which made this Christmas a meaningful one to me...=)

On Tuesday, while having lunch with these two girls, they asked about why Tanya is so closed with me. Then, I explain the reason that sometimes she would come over and stay with me and my parents when her parents were away. Then, these two cute girls were like, ''oh! So, she's pastor's daughter! No wonder she's so good in praying." I quickly grab the chance to tell them that, praying to God doesn't belong to Pastor's daughter only, everyone of us can pray to God coz we are His children, and also invited them to our weekly night prayer meeting on Wednesday.

So, they came. And that night, we put a little powerpoint that our pastor and Uncle Wu has made on the topic of The Origin of Christmas. After prayer meeting that night, they talked to Uncle Teng, and suddenly Uncle Teng called us over, saying that they wanted to accept Christ into their lives and they said the prayer together. I'm so happy, happy that there're 2 souls that are won!!! =)

Another Day Out

2008-12-26T21:36:00.005+13:00

星期三晚上突然來了個TXT﹐說她禮拜五會到HAMILTON﹐然後她要求的第一件事就是﹕可不可以再帶她去吃牛肉面。先PO一張上來讓你們看看~~~她上次來的時候就吃了兩碗(午餐一碗﹐晚餐一碗)~~~

我可以感覺到以後她每次到這裡都會要叫一碗牛肉面哈哈﹗

然後就帶她去THE BASE逛逛﹐沒買什麼﹐就看到人潮一堆﹐好像在家過年的感覺﹐哈哈﹗回來的路上還看到車在排長龍﹐真是少見﹗

看到一個人說﹐一生中最好要有屬靈同伴~~~我覺得我有很多﹐她就是其中一個.認識她就是一件美好的事情。說到我們的認識﹐還滿奇特的。雖然父母都認識的﹐跟她成為朋友卻是今年的事。而且﹐還是在最低潮的時候派來和我一起禱告的天使=)

Day out

2008-12-24T22:31:00.003+13:00

Yesterday, went out with these kids....and first time stepping into Time Zone to take sticker pictures in Hamilton. We went to Willow Glen as well...coz I thought the scenery there is nice.....so yup, took quite a few pics there......

Last Holiday

2008-12-22T22:39:00.003+13:00

This is a nice movie! =)

Watched this on tv the other day while babysitting. This is a story about a lady that's misdiagnosed of having a terminal illness and only have 3 weeks to live. She questioned God, but there's no answer from Him. And so, she got her savings out and went to the place that she has always wanted to be, and do the things that she always wanted to do. During the holiday, she really had adventures with God, and finally a fax came through from her doctor saying that she has been misdiagnosed. And she told God that He's funny (something like that, can't really remember the exact words).

This story inspired me a lot...in whatever we do juz have faith in Him.

For my thoughts are not your thoughts,

nor are your ways my ways, says the Lord.

For as heavens are higher than the earth,

so are my ways higher than your ways

and my thoughts than your thoughts.

(Isaith 55:8-9)

A Thankful Heart

2008-12-18T20:15:00.003+13:00

God has given me opportunities to work with special need children these few years. I don't know how, but there is something that just connects me to these children.

One thing that I see in these children is that: they have delightful characters, and are happy all the time.

I'm thankful to God that He reminded me through this job with these children, and that I can be a help to these families....=)

pic from: http://www.decoruniqueart.com/catalog/images/A%20Thankful%20Heart%20Large%20Web%20view.jpg

Scattered pieces of puzzle

2008-12-15T00:08:00.003+13:00

I don't want to think that a puzzle piece is the whole picture that I see

I want to see the pieces of puzzle being assembled

I don't want it scattered around...

Pls help me to see that you are sorting something out.....

life is fragile

2008-12-11T09:35:00.004+13:00

Yesterday, I went to visit a previous colleague whom her daughter died. I have never visited someone alone.....I mean, I used to go with my parents and friends and other adults when I was younger, but yesterday, was my first time to do this alone. I was worried of what words to say to her because her daughter is around my age etc etc...

So yup, prayed and prayed and prayed...bought a bouquet of flowers...and off I went.

When I arrived, we hugged for a long time. And then she sat me down in the lounge and briefly told me what happened and so on....I'm not a person with a lot of words..so yeah, just listened. And then, she told me that she has been quite stressed from her daughter's sickness and hence her body is all tensed up.....then I offered her a massage to soothe hers body, and yeah, lucky that she likes it. And it did help her a bit...I hoped that she did have a good sleep last night.

It just got to me that life is just fragile and tough. I mean, even with Jesus life is tough, what if life is without Him? I can't imagine...just like this friend's daughter who thought that there is no hope anymore to continue to live on.

Glorify

2008-12-09T14:07:00.003+13:00

Glory

Glorify

榮耀祂的名

These words again have been coming into my mind....He's trying to tell me something....I have my guesses, but I'm praying for a clearer words from God. Pls pray with me

Thank you!!!!!!

Graces Upon the way

2008-12-08T23:14:00.007+13:00

Yup, so I have been in Wellington with Pastor and his wife for 4 days 3 nights, to help out a Chinese fellowship in Lower Hutt. I'm only a pianist down there to help Pastor....but I just have to conclude this mission trip with a sentence: serving God is really really awesome!!!!!!!

It has really been a lot of graces during this trip.

On the day of departure, my sis rang from Wellington and said the weather was really lousy down there, and she would just pick us up, have lunch, n drop us down at the meeting place. And, I brought a coat, coz I thought it would be really windy down there.....but then when we arrived, it was sunny!!!!! and no wind!!!!!!!!! That lasted the whole trip.....so, tat coat was totally a waste = =

And then, I got Christmas presents and nice food from them, and a nice bungalow to stay during our last nite there too....which was a totally surprise! I mean, I was down there to serve, and in the end we were being served as well. I love that bungalow that we were in, the garden is juz magnificent, and it's like we were on a retreat....I'll definitely post the photos up when I have them. This house is like built on a mountain, and the garage is down at the bottom, and we have to walk all the way up to the house...and along the way, the flowers were so pretty! And Uncle Rodger build the deck and layered them, and Aunty Nancy planted the flowers....I felt like I was in the heaven. How I wish my hayfever is totally healed! But, my nose behaved well this morning when Uncle Rodger asked me to go walk around the garden before breakfast is ready, haha! It didn't sneeze....I only felt that my eyes were itchy, that's all.

And when we got to Wellington Airport, we were invited to the Koru Club (which is the vip area) for complimentary food and drink....coz today is the first day launching of self check-in system in Wellington airport! First time ever in the vip lounge =) Then, pastor said to me, 'honour God, and God will honour you too'!

Last, but not the least, my dear lil sis brought me to try out all these nice food in Wellington and window shopping around the city. Loved the time we spent together, and OMG, and the jokes.....she's really the clown in the family!

This trip was awesome!!

You crown the year with your bounty;

your wagon tracks overflow with richness.

The pastures of the wilderness overflow,

the hills gird themselves with joy,

the meadows clothe themselves with flocks,

the valleys deck themselves with grain,

they shout and sing together the joy.

Psalm 65:11-13

I'm back in Hamilton ^^

2008-12-08T17:14:00.003+13:00

After a few days in Wellington with Pastor and his wife
I'm finally back in Hamilton this afternoon.
Will write more later.....
as for now....I need a good shower!

A Father's Heart

2008-12-03T09:02:00.002+13:00

This was suppose to be a post back in few months ago...but I've been quite slack...so yup! Decided to sit down and write it before I go and see my little princesses =)

I was like ants on the hot pots(translate into Chinese is: 熱鍋上的螞蟻) back in a few months ago, after seeing some people that were so messed up...probably not that 'messed up', but to me, it's like aarrgh!! Really at that time I wanted to strangle them and open up their head and see what they were thinking......and at some point, I wanted to give up on everyone of them, like....really don't want to care about them anymore and just let them be....I even tell myself I don't feel like getting married and have kids anymore...even though I like children a lot....but teenagers are just a bunch of headaches!

And then, I thought of myself at that teenage period...I probably let my parents worried a lot too. Friendships, studies, communications between me and my Mum especially, it was so tensed...I was ok with my Dad though coz I know he's a calm person and I talked to him a lot.I don't know how did my parents handled me as I would have handled this bunch of youth kids...probably a lot of tears and prayers too.

Then, God spoke to me again during my sort of 'grumbling session' of how should I help them and etc...He said "Don't give up on them just like I never give up on you". And after a few weeks a pastor and his wife came over from Taiwan came over and talked to us who are in the ministry especially cellgoup leaders the same exact words, and I take that as a confirmation from the Lord that if He as a creator and saviour of us has never given up on us, we can't possibly give up on anyone. I wouldn't dare to think if He has given up on us, how our lives would be.

I love this scripture on how Prophet Isaiah did mentioned about youths:
Why do you say O Jacob,
and speak, O Israel,
"My way is hidden from the Lord,
and my right is disregarded by my God"?
Have you not known? Have you not heard?
The Lord is the everlasting God,
the Creator of the ends of the earth.
He does not faint of grow weary;
his understanding is unsearchable.
He gives power to the faint,
and strengthens the powerless.
Even youths will faint and be weary,
and the young will fall exhausted;
but those who wait for the Lord shall renew their strength,
they shall mount up with wings like eagles,
they shall run and not be weary,
they shall walk and not faint.

Juz a sharing...and a future reference for myself =)

6 more weeks

2008-12-01T21:54:00.003+13:00

6 more weeks to go!!!
And I will be a student again! How exciting is that......
Well, have been out of uni for 3 years, and I don't know if I can cope again with all the readings and assignments @_@"'

Went to buy second-hand textbook from Sarah, and kinda have a little talk with her about how she finds it...And what she said kinda make me nervous, especially during summer school where she said she only slept 3 hours per day and everyday there will be assignments to hand in...I'm like OMG! 3 hours sleep per day is definitely not enough for me....I have to have at least 10.....Guess I'll have to do some readings now coz I've got one textbook, and to exercise my self-discipline!!!!!!

Less day-dreaming

Less facebook

Less word challenge

Less msn

推推﹗

2008-11-30T22:31:00.003+13:00

Thanks to Nina for lending me this movie!

It's an awesome one!

And and, the scenery in the movie is really beautiful

wish I can go to Taiwan again......soon! =)

我的一生在你手中

2008-11-24T09:14:00.003+13:00

在主面前，细细数算神的恩典

我才明了，你的奇妙带领

我等候，愿能摸着你的心意

未来的路，愿走在你旨意中

献上我最爱，在祭坛前不带走

带领我前往你所应许之地

我的一生在你手中

惊涛骇浪主与我同在

我的一生在你手中

勇敢前往向标杆直奔

我的一生在你手中甘心顺服得最终奖赏

我的一生在你手中

我深知道我的一生在你手中

(专辑名称：释放属天的能力)

最近﹐上帝不斷不斷的跟我說話~~不論在禱告會里﹐主日崇拜的信息﹐He keep reinforcing me that He's there. What I need to do is to claim His promises and to fight for the property that He has given me.

嗯﹐我的一生在祂的手中

I'm so loved~~

2008-11-21T22:32:00.004+13:00

Thank you everyone for your birthday wishes and presents!!!!!

I thank God for all of you in my life

and the moments we share together is awesome!

thank you

thank you!!!!!!

He is awesome!

2008-11-15T11:31:00.003+13:00

Your grace is amazing

Your providence is sufficient

I just can't thank you more

Jehovah Jireh

This is Your name!

Reinhard Bonnke

2008-11-15T08:52:00.013+13:00

Reinhard Bonnke is the man for God! Amazed by how the Holy Spirit work through him and used him for Africa.

He inspired me a lot! That everything we do, if God's with us, nothing is impossible.

He loves God, and that's why God has honoured him in his ministry to bring millions of people to God everytime he preaches!

God, please teach me how to honour You in my life!

Evangelist Reinhard Bonnke-A Biography
Evangelist Reinhard Bonnke is known for his Great Gospel Crusades throughout the continent of Africa. The son of a pastor, Reinhard gave his life to the Lord at age nine, and heard the call to the African mission field before he was even a teenager. After attending Bible college in Wales, he became a pastor in Germany for seven years and then went on to start mission work in Africa. It was there, in the small mountain kingdom of Lesotho, that God placed upon his heart the vision of ‘the continent of Africa, washed in the precious Blood of Jesus’ – an entire continent, from Cape Town to Cairo and from Dakar to Djibouti that needed to be reached and to hear the proclamation of the signs-following Gospel.

He began holding meetings in a tent that accommodated just 800 people, but, as attendance steadily increased, larger and larger tents had to be purchased, until finally, in 1984, he commissioned the construction of the world’s largest mobile structure – a tent capable of seating 34,000 people! Soon, attendance at his meetings even exceeded the capacity of this huge structure, and he began open-air Gospel Campaigns with an initial gathering of over 150,000 people! Since then, he has conducted city-wide meetings across the continent with as many as 1,600,000 people attending a single gathering using towering sound systems that can be heard for miles.

It has now been some thirty years since Reinhard Bonnke founded the international ministry of Christ for all Nations (CfaN), which currently has offices in the United States, Canada, Germany, United Kingdom, Africa, Singapore, Australia, Hong Kong and South America.

Since the start of the new millennium, through a host of major events in Africa and other parts of the world and aimed at seeing 100,000,000 souls record a decision for Jesus Christ in this decade, some 44 million have responded to the Gospel call.

As part of the discipleship-training program, 190,000,000 copies of CfaN literature have been published in 143 languages and printed in 54 countries. Millions of books have been printed and freely ‘seeded’ in nations around the world. All this is in addition to the ‘Reinhard Bonnke School of Fire,’ an online, self-study course, aimed at inspiring others to Holy Spirit Evangelism and leading to either a certificate or university credits. Other soul-winning projects are in development, including one that is aimed at inspiring the next generation of evangelists also to reach the unreached, to further the Kingdom, and to see the Gospel message proclaimed throughout the world.

Reinhard Bonnke is also recognized for hosting ‘Fire Conferences’ in many different countries of the world, events that are aimed at equipping church leaders and workers for evangelism… for distributing over 90,000,000 copies of Minus to Plus, a profound salvation message, to homes around the world and for seeking every opportunity to reach and to save the lost. He is known as one with a burning passion for the Gospel, a vision for Africa and a message for the world.

(adapted from: http://uk.cfan.org/Reinhard-Bonnke-Biography.aspx)

The people that came to his evangelism in the Republic of Benin

My birthday wish list

2008-11-13T13:35:00.000+13:00

I'll be 27 next week! yikes, time really flies!

But it's only the number that is increasing, I don't feel old at all..haha!
This can be proven by a several occassions that when I'm out with a bunch of friends for dinner and asked for wine at the dinner, I'm the one that has to show ID card, when actually I'm the oldest among all......haha!

Ok, here comes my birthday wishlist for this year! If you see it, don't pretend you don't see it, and buy me one! haha!

1) Hydraulic Press Juicers - but this is the most expensive one, I don't really expect anyone to buy it for me..=)

2) Max Lucado's books

3) Money =P

4) Amazingly........nothing else that I want anymore =)

So, there you go...haha!

計劃永遠趕不上變化

2008-11-13T13:03:00.000+13:00

Talked to Toby on msn the other day, way before he left for China.
And he said this: 計劃永遠趕不上變化 (meaning, changes are always faster that what you've planned for)

He's right...what I've planned is only planned, when circumstances changed, all the plannings will just have to wait.