My favourite Uncle

Since young, he's the one that I've always adored and loved.
A man with great humour and a person who can do reflexology massage well
everytime when he came over, I'll ask him to do the massage for me.
He's my eldest uncle in Dad's family, and my favourite uncle of all.

This afternoon, I got an email from my cousin saying that he passed away yesterday back in Malaysia. It was a shock to me, coz a few weeks back, I was just telling Dad that I missed him, and I want him to come over. And it will never happen again.....

I miss him
I miss the jokes that he told
I miss the times that how he made me laughed n laughed until my tears broke down
I miss him a thousand times T_T

Remembering you....

今晚，没想到会听到你写过的歌 - 我的天堂
你走了有2年多了
MSN里的你的账号，我没删，也不想删
因为我怕一删掉，我就会忘记你这位
我自认的属灵哥哥

听着那首歌，我哭了
但是我想我不应该哭的
你在上面一定活得很开心

I'm just missing you....
and the wisdom that you had for me
I'm sure I'll see you soon up there....

=____________=

1:21am
I'm wide awake~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
I want to sleep, but I can't.....
the fact of "your course is shrunk from 3 years to 1 year" made me a bit stressed and nervous....
coz I found myself wanting to do housework rather than reading my book.....

I have to pull myself back together......

1:30am
still awake.........
I better do some reading.....

>.>

Uni starts

Although we attend classes on the 14th Jan, but the lecture didn't start until yesterday afternoon. I have met like 2 more M'sians!! yey!!!

And yesterday morning, we have this powhiri ceremony (a welcome ceremony) at our University's Marae, where in this occassion, it is the ceremony of welcoming the students into the big family of School of Education. Then, after all the speeches, we have this 'hongi' ceremony, where you will go up to each of them, and have a nose to nose touching ceremony. The Maori believed that when you touch nose with each other, two people's breath will unite or intermingle together, and that you're the people of the land and not a visitor anymore.

Uni starts tomorrow...

Time flies.........and my class will start tomorrow!!!!
A bit scary.....coz haven't been reading academic stuff and assignments for 3 years now...I probably have forgotten all the APA referencing style.....Hopefully it will all be good!

Anticipating.....Excited.......and a bit nervous....hahahahah

Spiritual Loneliness

every Christian in their walks of life

will face a time when they've to walk some of the journey alone

and no one around can seemed to understand

Even Jesus and Joseph faced that type of loneliness......

He came out and went, as was his custom, to the Mount of Olives; and the disciples followed him. When he reached the place, he said to them, "Pray that you not come into the time of trial." Then he withdrew from them about a stone's throw, kelt down, and prayed, "Father, if you are willing, remove this cup from me; yet, not my will but yours be done." [Then an angel from heaven appeared to him and gave him strength. In his anguish he prayed more earnest,y, and his sweat became like great drops of blood falling down on the ground.] When he got up from prayer, he came to the disciples and found them sleeping because of grief, and he said to them, "Why are you sleeping? Get up and pray that you many not come into the time of trial." - Luke 22:39-46

Once Joseph had a dream, and when he told it to his brothers, they hated him even more. He said to them, "Listen to this dream that I dreamed. There we were, binding sheaves in the field. Suddenly my sheaf rose and stood upright; then your sheaves gathered around it, and bowed down to my sheaf." His brothers said to him, "Are you indeed to reign over us? Are you indeed to have dominion over us?" So they hated him even more because of his dreams and his words. He had another dream, and told it to his brothers, saying , "Look, I have had another dream: the sun, the moon, and eleven stars were bowing down to me," But when he told it to his father and to his brothers, his father rebuked him, and said to him, "What kind of drea is this that you have had? Shall we indeed come, I and your mother and your brothers, and bow to the ground before you?" So his brothers were jealous of him, but his father kept the matter in mind. -Genesis 37:5-11

Only God has the answers to all the questions...

Keep trusting....

You never know what your journey is filled with when God is being 'mischievious'

yes, He is......

I can see Him laughing.....=)

He is good!

耶和華是我的產業

是我杯中的分﹐

我所得的﹐你為我持守。

用繩量給我的地界﹐

坐落在佳美之處﹔

我的產業實在美好。

-詩篇16﹕5-6

Lord, you have assigned me my portion and my cup;

you have made my lot secure.

The boundary lines have fallen for me in pleasant places;

surely I have a delightful inheritance.

-Psalm 16:5-6

I love the chinese version of the first sentence, where in my translation it says , "Lord, you are my inheritance, and you are the portion in my cup."

At the last day of 2008, I've heard many testimonials saying that they are thankful because what God has blessed them with - health, financial, etc. And while listening, I'm envy of them because a lot of them have had blessings from the Lord. And then, the above bible verses came to me (in Chinese) that night, that moment. And, it kept repeating in my mind. It kinda make me think: what if God didn't heal them? what if God didn't give them what they wanted, would they still go up the stage and say 'thank you' to Him?

I'm thankful not because He has given me what I asked for, but He is my inheritance. And He is teaching me to surrender my own likes and wait for the best that He has for me.

I'm thankful because He loves me for who I am.

I'm thankful because He is Him.

May he be our own satisfaction....=)

Happy Belated New Year

I know I'm a bit late...but

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!!!!!

Passion and Purity - some chinese quotes

所有綠色植物的生長都奇妙的代表收放、得失、生死的過程。為了使花苞成形﹐一定要歷經裂開的階段﹐等花朵形成﹐花苞就得『釋放』了。花萼接著釋放了花朵﹐花瓣一定要捲起、死去﹐好讓果實得以成形。果子落下﹐裂開﹐放出了種子﹐種子就落在土里……。

少了這種『釋放』『鬆手』的過程﹐屬靈生命就無法持續下去。因為就在我們拒絕鬆手的那地方﹐成長就停止了。若我們對白白得來的東西緊抓不放﹐在該鬆手時不願鬆手﹐或不願任賜下東西的那一位隨祂的心意使用﹐就會阻礙了靈魂的成長。


- p128﹐《情慾與貞潔》