Valentine's Day

yes, we are crazy!

we went out again on the 14th Feb. Because the night before, he cooked for me, so I treat him tonite. I think in a relationship it's a fair share where both people should contribute to make the relationship grow. So we went to a Japanese restaurant, and then after that we went to Raglan beach, but that day, the sun sets too early, so we didn't get to see anything but clouds clouds clouds.......

but.............I enjoyed his company, and

my lovely bunch of red roses, they came days later, but I don't mind at all haha!!!

Thank you sweetheart and my dear dear Jesus!

My pre-Valentine day

yup yup this year I Finally got to celebrate my first ever Valentine's Day with my Mr. Marvellous.

on the 13th February, Mr M. cooked me nice dinner - french style steak, and steamed some kumaras, n capsicums! He thinks he didn't cook it well, but for me the dinner was really awesome! But I only remembered to take photo after I nearly finish them = =

我和他（2）

那晚回到家之后，还是继续发text, 问他是不是认真的。然后他才跟我说，他的脸突然变得很严肃是因为他听到一个声音叫他认真一点。然后我就吓他说，如果你是认真的，那你就去问牧师可不可以在一起。我以为说这样就可以让他倒退，结果没有~~~~他回复说他马上去找牧师，然后他隔天还是隔几天就刚好有事情要找牧师，然后就跟牧师说了。听说牧师笑得超级开心哈哈。然后我就有一次经过牧师办公室的时候，被牧师看到了，就把我叫住，说“Rachael, 我们的弟兄很不错。好好考虑啊!" 只能说，我的弟兄实在是非常大胆！就这样我考虑也祷告了很久，觉得心里满平安的，而且真的觉得跟他在一起都好开心，也很舒服，就在去年的Easter Holiday去Waihi海边的时候答应了跟他交往~~~

虽然我现在还是不知道我的异像里的另一个人是谁，不过我自己觉得那是上帝；我们的交往会让彼此更多的认识神，而且有他介入我们的感情中一定会有很多的祝福和恩典！希望我们的交往让更多的人蒙祝福

我和他（1）

发现，我都没写过跟他认识的经过，所以决定上来写一写呵呵！

之前在教会都不知道有他怎么一个人，因为他算是刚来2年，而我一直在youth group里面服侍，所以很少有机会认识其他人除非他们在其他团队有服侍。一直到Toby在09年的婚礼上，他请我帮忙准备婚礼献诗，我发现到一首很好听的歌想叫Eva独唱，Toby就叫我找许学辰说他可以帮我声音消掉。就这样，我就找了他帮忙。在帮忙的过程中，我就觉得他人超级nice, 超级有耐心的帮忙，而且当时的我对他来说算是一个陌生人。我就自己心里想：he has a real big heart!之后，我就听说他要回中国结婚了。

不久之后， 我就听说他回来，之后从朋友口中听说他没结成。再不久，他就来参加youth group得服侍。他进来的服侍时间也真的是有够 = =" 因为他来了之后不久，toby跟zoe就回去中国；然后滕叔叔跟琴阿姨又去韩国的访韩特会，我就收到命令说我需要帮忙带他；这个完全打破我的“不带男生"得惯例！友谊也是从这个时候建立的。他们去韩国的那天，我们在主日聚会后，也跑去Raglan的Bridal Fall, 爬楼梯的时候我就因为突然一冷一热的脚开始软，然后就整个脸部发白；他跟张铭两个只能轮流背我上去。这次的事件之后，他就建议说我们应该多出去走走；走着走着再加上经常的发简讯，我觉得我好喜欢他，而且他让人跟他在一起的时候很舒服。

上帝让我想起了在台湾他给我的异像：我跟一个有点黑的，又很大只的男生一起走路；还一起爬山，然后之后我是坐在他的肩膀上来到一个人的面前，然后我就很欢喜的从他肩膀上下来，我们三个一起牵着手跳舞。

可是，当时后我觉得还是朋友就好了，我觉得一个人因该不会那么快从一个感情中跳脱出来，所以一直处于denial阶段。他就一直处于试探阶段，然后我就一直跟他说“别玩了”。到2010年二月的时候他邀我去看电影，然后在centre place的楼下，他还企图牵我的手，我就整个吓到了，我又很生气的跟他说了一次“别玩了”。他也有点生气了，说“如果我是认真的呢?" 我没理他就转移话题，然后就一起去找朋友了。他还是很nice的一起带我们去其他地方 -----〉所以说他的耐心真的超级无限大~~~~~~~~~~~~哈哈！

好多要学的

在感情中，原来真的好多东西要学~~~
在两个不同的文化里，更难！

耶稣帮助我们~~~~~~~~~~~

愛？不愛？-男生女生的差異

在一個部落格看到的。覺得很特別就po上來了^^

女生不懂，当女生在为男生不打电话生气时，男生可能在干着又苦又累的工作。

女生不懂，当男生为女生披上他自己的衣服是，他也是如坠冰 窖。

女生不懂，当女生一句话让男生沉默的时候，男生不是生气，而是深深的受伤。

女生不懂，当看到男生一只快乐 时，不是男生没有痛苦，而是全部埋在心底。

女生不懂，当女生为男生付出的时候，男生不是看不见，而是不善于表达。

女 生不懂，当男生挑剔女生不好的时候，在别人面前却夸的如天仙一般。

女生不懂，当男生转身的时候，女生看不到男生眼底的悲伤和心理的泪 和血。

女生不懂，当男生失意的时候，永远是孤独的喝着酒。

女生不懂，当男生在坚强的外表下，有时候是一颗异常脆 弱的心。

女生不懂，当男生悲伤的时候，永远不会骂女生，是因为男生还深深的爱着她。

女生不懂，当女生痛苦的时 候，男生的心痛永远不会比女生少。

女生不懂，当男生离开的时候，并不代表他不爱她，而是不想浪费她的青春和感情。

女 生不懂，当男生选择成为过客的时候，男生的心中永远刻着女生的名字。

女生不懂，当男生装傻的时候，不是忘记，而是在想如何给女生一个 惊喜。

女生不懂，当男生生气的时候，不是因为不能承受女生的无理取闹，而是因为被女生的话深深地伤害。


如果一个 男生真的爱一个女生，他的许多都是女生不懂得，男生对女生的尊重和爱也不会比女生付出的少，因为男生承受的东西本就很多，男生的心不会比女生坚强，因为女 生可以发泄，而男生却只能压在心底。很多时候不要太责怪一个男生。因为他爱的同样甚至更深。只不过被深深的藏起。

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男生永远不懂，为什么女生会那么的依赖你，那是因为她把你当做她的唯一，为什么女生在你不给她打电话的时候会很生气，因为她想要听到你的声音，感觉你的疼爱。

男生永远不懂，女生为什么会爱生气，因为她只是想要你来哄她，回味你们之间的温存。

男生永远不懂，女生怎么那么爱吃醋，那是因为她爱你，而容不下一点你给其他女生的任何一点温柔。

男生永远不懂，为什么女生爱唠叨让你少抽烟，少喝酒，女生也知道那不可能，但是她担心你的身体。

男生永远不懂，女生怎么那么多的眼泪，那是因为她将所有的委屈都化做泪水，而把所有的温柔都留给你。

男生永远不懂，女生愿意为你东奔西跑、为你做很多事，只是因为爱你，而并不是为了显示自己比你强。

男生永远不懂，女生会在很晚的时候打电话给你，不是不信任你，只是突然很想你，想听听你的声音。

男生永远不懂，女生会想要知道你的一切，想为你分担事情，那是因为她只想要自己是你最亲密的人。

男生永远不懂，当分手来到时，女生那坚强的语言后面是多么伤的伤痛！

男生永远不懂，分手后女生不是不痛，而是痛到连看到你就会无法自拔！

男生永远不懂，女生的爱是那么深。一旦爱上就不能自已。隐瞒的那么深，不要带给你困扰！而自己哭泣！

男生永远不懂，女生的爱！女生的爱脆弱又坚强，不要**感情。女孩狠起心来是不要命的。

男生永远不懂,当你说不爱她了。她不会缠着你。只要你快乐，她愿意放开你。

男生永远不懂，女生在分手后那笑的背后有了多少的悲痛！


如果爱，请深深的爱她，如果不爱，请不要享受她的独爱。 不要挥霍爱情，爱情挥霍完了，就会挥霍了她的生命。

Tired but happy

I've started working for a week now, and I love that place, love the team, and love the children!!
The staff are all very nice to me, and teach me a lot of new things. They also make sure that I'm alright at work, and yeah, everything is good!

Job hunting (2)

So, I went to the interview for the one that I felt uncomfortable, and God closed the door! haha! They said they would want an experienced teacher because their centre is fairly new and they only have one with experienced at the moment. So, yey! God close the door! ^^
It's good that they gave me the result of the discussion the very next day, while I am actively searching for job on the internet. I came across one that is a very big company that has over 100 centres in New Zealand. I have been considering to go into big company for a very long time.So decided to give it a go.Applied in writing that day, and got the phone call the next day, and interview the next day after.

During the interview, it was only the HR manager that interviewed me, and she referred me to a centre where she think would be the best for me, but she said that it's not up to her to make the decision; it is the centre's manager and me. So yeah, I went to see the centre, and have a chat with the centre manager, and while chatting, we just clicked because of something in common interest that we share. And yeah, straightaway I rang the HR manager and told her that I like the place and would like to join the team.

So, the HR manager has to ring the referees of mine, she has to at least get 2 out of the 3 references. But after ringing the 1st one, she told me she couldn't get hold of the second one whom is having holiday at the beach. And she told me to wait until next week to give me the final outcome. And then within the next few minutes, the HR manager rang back and said, the Business manager told her to 'just give me the job'. In my heart I'm like "Whoa!!! Praise God!!" This is indeed a miracle to me! Got a job in just that one day!!!! haha!

Job hunting (1)

I have been looking for jobs and interviewing since January, but they all asked me to wait, for the reasons that it's New Year period, and then I have to wait for them to get to the end of interviews.

I am not the person of patient, I keep looking out for posts that are advertised in Education Gazette (a magazine that is published by the Ministry of Education), and the outcomes are:

-there's one that I really like in Paraparaumu (Kapiti Coast), which is a town near Wellington, but Mum was like why do you have to go so far to work when you can easily find jobs in Hamilton.

-another one that I hoped to get in, but they rejected me to go for the interview = ="!!!

-some centres I did went to interview, and got rejected because the amount of people that applied is just overwhelming

-some I couldn't wait because they are new centres, and only open in March/April.

-Then, another one is a centre that I don't really feel comfortable. I went to look at the centre, but then I felt it's all good. And I told the manager that I would want to have a formal interview. It's only when I had the chance to work as a reliever that I felt a bit uncomfortable, but when I asked my friends if there's any case of people pulling out of interview, they all marah (scold) me. Then, I can only pray to God and said, I really don't like it, can you please don't let them employ me... I think no one would make that kind of prayer to ask God to close the door.

But during this period of waiting time, Revelation 3:7-8

To the angel of the church in Philadelphia write: These are the words of him who is holy and true, who holds the key of David. What he opens no one can shut, and what he shuts no one can open. I know your deeds. See, I have placed before you an open door that no one can shut. I know that you have little strength, yet you have kept my word and have not denied my name.

These two verses gave me an endorsement that everything we do, everything we have and going to have; or everywhere we go is endorse by God. It's just amazing that you know when you are a child of God, you are protected, and guarded by Him. I don't know how other people feel when they are rejected for a job especially during this time of the economy downturn, but I felt that joy keep flowing inside of me when I'm rejected. When I texted other people and told them I'm rejected, they were all asking if I'm alright, and I said yes, perfectly alright because God holds the pass to whatever company that I'm going into.

Learn to Wait

A few nights ago, as I was praying for myself and praying for God's confirmation to come through. I told God that I donno how should I choose: the easier way, or the way that seems too impossible for it to happen unless He Himself intervenes in it.
Then, I couldn't sleep, so I got up and turned on the Shine TV which was "Devotion Time" with Pastor Ashley and Jane ..........(forgot the surname). Anyway, it was early morning. And their sharing really talk to me, and reminded me that God did once spoke to me in my practicum.

Last year, I was studying towards a degree of Graduate Diploma in Teaching (Early Childhood Education), so I had 3 practicums in a year. While I was at the final practicum, I was in a big class of 30s over 2s children (age from 2-5). There was one that will just throw a tantrum by crying, and lying on the floor kicking when he doesn't get what he wants. One day, the tantrum occurred when he needed to wait for his turn to play with the toys, and he just bursted into tears and cried his lungs out, and then throw himself on the floor and lied there crying. Then the Holy Spirit reminded me: you are just like him over that matter.

I'm like, all shocked, coz it's just like seeing an image mirror before God. When He told me to wait patiently and trust Him, I couldn't do it, and would just start to play tantrums before God. Although He loves us very much, He wouldn't buy in to our tantrums because He knows that we need to learn to wait, as we grow older spiritually. If, we give in to the child who played tantrums everytime, then we are not helping him, but we are spoiling that child to the extent that he won't know how to wait; he will only think of himself and become a selfish person. The worst case that I can think of when he grows up is probably he would sought the worst ways to satisfy his own needs if he is not given the chance to learn to wait.

Waiting is difficult. I admit I'm not a patient person. I couldn't sit still and just wait for an answer to drop down from above. But He's reminding me that there's a greater things need to be done in the Kingdom of God than my own personal problem. So yeah, I know He won't buy in...but He has the best timing. It may be late for me, but it will be in time from His perspective.

Please pray for my heart to be still and be silent in front of Him. =)

Interviews

This week has been all about interviews and looking at Early Childhood centres that I'm interested in.
So, hopefully God will open the door that He wants me to go to, and use me as a vessel in the area.
Although I have two centres in mind, but I'll leave all the decisions to Him because He's the one that will open the door that no one can shut!

Happy 2010!!

Happy New Year everyone!

I hope this year would be a great one to everyone and that all bondages of the past

will be breakfree by God.

Yesterday, I spent a quiet morning in my bedroom writing my New Year resolution, hopefully it will all be fulfilled this year!!

*hugs and kisses*

Coromandel Trip

About 12 of us went to Coromandel Area on Christmas Day

Then, 5 stayed at a ferry point to fish, while the rest of us went to Cathedral Cove!

It was a pleasant 35 minutes walk down to the beach, but when we came up to the top, it was HOT HOT HOT, although it's only 9 something in the morning! The sun is just scorching hot! Despite that, it does worths it. Ooohhh, and that's where the Narnia - Prince Kaspian was shot (the beginning part of the film),

update: Birthday 2009

I finally finished my course........well 2 weeks ago..

but I'm so lazy to log on here and write the blog.

So yeah, first update would be about my birthday this year.

I celebrated one day later with Tanya in Tauranga, who is borned same day but 11 years younger than me. Thanks to Max who brought us there.....and we had fish and chips by the beach ^^

I got bday presents from Marlene ^^ a handmade card!!

A present from my brother, Max - big bear~~~

Daddy's baptism

Finally, after so many years!

Daddy's baptised here in Hamilton Mandarin Church.

He's awesome~~~

Have seen a lot of changes in him since I was small~~

Below are some pictures for you all to see ^^

Beautiful

Beautiful
詞：罗建明 曲：方嘉雄

上帝不曾承諾過

永遠風平浪靜

煩惱不停止

沒有誰能解釋

生活就是這樣子

只是一次又一次

從放棄到堅持

埋怨到認識

我不得不證實

你愛我那麽真實

經過時間的滲透

我會變的Beautiful

等痛過了 熬過了

就像蝴蝶蛻變

翩翩起舞

走過淚水的交錯

愛就變的Beautiful

我經歷了 學會了

信心慢慢長成大樹

把風擋住

雨后放晴的天空

會有出現彩虹

懂得人很多

看到的卻不夠

會心傷的 更不說

沒有人可以輕鬆

生活一樣要過

也許有時候我還是會出錯

但我知道要牽他手

經過時間的滲透

我會變的Beautiful

曾給過了 抛棄了

路雖難走 我卻不會孤獨

走過淚水的交錯

心境變得Beautiful

等經歷了 就懂了

信心是你給的禮物

我已守住

这首歌在玛玲的blog上听到后，就跟她分享最近的感觉就好像这首歌写的。然后她就email过来了这首歌。听了之后很喜欢很喜欢！

上帝没有应许天色常蓝 人生的旅途花香常漫
但是却应许生活有力

不習慣

這個禮拜
覺得怪怪的~~~~~~~~~
好不習慣啊~~~~~

最後一個禮拜

最後一個禮拜的上課了
其實也沒什麽課了
就一堆作業（3個）都在這個禮拜内要交

然後詩詩來了一句：
星期四要不要去Dressmart?
好誘惑人~~~~

好了，不說了
趕快寫作業，星期四也許能去
哈哈哈哈哈~~~

Tired~~~

最近已經盡量早睡覺了

可是還是到9-10點才醒 = ="

醒來之後還不是一般的累 T_T

我真佩服那些可以不用睡覺的人

或者就算很晚睡也能早醒

This week have to hand in one assignment, which I have started drafting

and next week 3 assignments....which I haven't start a thing! Well, there's one that's a collaborative assignment, so it's good that there are a few more brains thinking toghether rather than me alone.

But something exciting is:

only got 2 weeks of study left!!!!! hehe

and then 7 weeks of practicum!

Can't wait to see what centre I'm going into

and the cute bunch of droolies....

背經

今年訂了目標一定要背5段長的經文。
爲什麽只有5段呢？因爲我怕自己功課忙做不到所以就先從少一點開始。
會想要開始背經也是因爲滕叔叔從去年開始就在Youth Group裏面讓那些年輕人開始背，
而自己做到一半也放棄了，所以今年就開始也繼續從少一點的開始。

然後看了《哈利路亞噢巴桑》這本書之後，發現崔子實牧師是在40多嵗念神學的時候
逼自己背經文的，如果當時40多嵗的她可以做到，那我也要！！

這個禮拜的目標是詩篇1
所以這個禮拜每天都在背這一篇

不從惡人的計謀
不站罪人的道路
不坐褻慢人的座位
惟喜愛耶和華的律法
晝夜思想 這人便為有福
他要像一棵樹栽在溪水旁 按時侯結果子葉子也不枯乾
凡他所做的盡都順利。

惡人並不是這樣
乃像糠秕被風吹散
因此儅審判的時候惡人必站立不住
罪人在義人的會中也必這樣

因爲耶和華知道義人的道路
惡人的道路卻必滅亡。